Day 173...I can honestly say I never thought I would be PMO free for this amount of time. This week flew by. No overtime, however, lots to do, and we went to a friend's house for a fire. Yesterday (Saturday) I told my wife that I would drop her off home from the gym (great workout together). She could start cleaning the house, since we were having a guest today (Sunday). And I would get some groceries.
Well, she had a HUGE meltdown / panic attack / anxiety attack or whatever you want to call it. Got a few texts saying "I'm overwhelmed, I can't clean, the house is too messy, my system just broke down, I had a crying / screaming fit, and by body shut down". What do you do with that, well, when you have seen it many times before...you keep running your errands, and reply back "go to my parents camp, away from everything, and I'll clean when I get home"...then she sends another text...I replied back "go for a nap, I'll take care of it"...
****possible trigger alert****
Get home...she had the whole house pretty near spotless. But, she didn't want to go out for the fire. Definitely not in the mood for sex, which what I was reeeaaaalllly hoping for, I was 2 weeks without relief...this sucked, bad.
We both had a nap, and went out with the friends. She had an awesome time, and even had some punch our friend made. I don't drink, so I have no idea. She had some, and said it was strong, and only had 2 drinks.
At about 11pm...she whispers in my ear "I think it's time to go home, and for me to make it up to you for screaming at you while I was cleaning"....cheque please!!!
She held to her promise...however, while it was awesome and somewhat short lived (which I told her, no relief for 2 weeks, it's like being a virgin again), either way, she loved it, me, it burned. Suspecting too long without relief??
Again today, great sex again, and much better, no burning. And apparently she's planning on waking me up in the morning for more. I love my weekends.
Then this evening, I had a conversation with my pastor, and told him I'm just a few days away from 6 months without PMO...he was very excited and thrilled. We had a great conversation. I also asked him for prayer for my wife's anxiety, and for my rabbit hole research in this stupid covid crap. That being said, everything I see, is coming to light, so I'm happy to see I'm not as crazy as I thought I was...however, very time consuming.
All this to say...the streak continues.