Trying to quit intermittent porn use addiction

Furquim

Member
It took 1 month porn free (not fapfree) till I've relapsed again 2 times this december. I feel I have to recover the motivation I had back when I started posting here. I felt I  wasn't  so committed those last days, and this is absolutely  bad... I started ignoring (consciously or not) all the experience I got in the most successful reboots I've made. I started consuming alcohol close to bedtime, I started using internet improperly, I didn't give attention to this forum site that once helped me a lot.
There's something really awful in this cycle i got stuck in: porn leads to general pleasure numbness, that  leads unhappiness, which leads to porn. Those ridiculously unnatural stimuli makes a real mess in your brain. 
But the I still  got  the capacity  of choosing not to conform myself to this enemy's strain.
I know how harmful porn is and how it is ruining my life (I'm not exaggerating). So, as long as live I'll got very strong reasons to abandon this mad habit.
Today I'm starting a new reboot, with renovated disposition. 

Thanks for reading. I'll try to keep posting here.
 

Furquim

Member
fapstranaut02 said:
Hi Furquim,

http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=282.0

It's a good read, I recommend you to read it to fight against your urges.

Thank you very very much. I've just read and found great. It gave me the necessary boost to start my new reboot.
Thanks for taking time to answer my posts.
 

Furquim

Member
After 4 months clean, 4 great months where I discovered what living well is really like, I relapsed on porn few minutes ago. Now, looking back, i see there were some errors in my path. I'll try to point them out as it may be useful for you:

I've disregarded my porn addict condition. I'm only on the recovery process, I'm still a porn addict, but I ignored it through these past months;

Consequently, I grew to much self-confident and I was not using internet in a safe way, not at all;

This relapse coincided with my return to social network (Instagram) this week, and some pictures there fueled my brain and led me to crave on porn again;

I've not paid so much attention to the quality of my sleep, which is so important for me, as most of my relapses occur in the mid of a sleepless night; (before this porn relapse, I relapsed on fapping 5 times only this month, allways kinda haf-asleep in the mid of the night)

In short, I've let the guard down, for sure.

Well, friends, recovering from porn may be a very lengthy enterprise and falls are expected, but it is absolutely worth it considering the great months when I was clean, so I wil be analyzing this relapse and trying to get some teaching out of it.
The struggle continues! And I'll not give up.
 

Furquim

Member
Hello, friends! Remember that you are brave and strong for the mere fact that you're strugling to quit this terrible vice.
Unfortunately, after 1 month, the story repeated. I relapsed in the middle of this night, after waking up with one of those crazy cravings on. I picked my smartphone and started the mess.
This time, curiously, I can't precisely point out specific causes, of course there may have been some negligence, but I thought I was doing alright, I was taking care of psubs, I was not on social media, I was controlling my thoughts, so I am a bit frustrated and still processing what happened and why.
But I will try to enumerate some causes, in order to make this text useful for you, dear friends.

I neglected that I am a porn addicted. All the images and chemicals and connections are still within my brain, although quiescent, just waiting for an opportunity to turn on.

I neglected the quality of my sleep. The last 2 relapses I had this year were in the middle of the night due to, among other things, bad sleep. As well, the 19 times out of 20 I fapped this year were in the same circumstances.(I keep records of this)

I neglected the nofap. Absolutely, porn was always associated with fap for me, but I kinda indulged myself to fall into this habit much more times than it should be, and it has always led me to porn, sooner or later.

I was kinda self-confident regarding my use of internet, using to late in the night, alone, but it was not directly the cause this time.

Given this, I will:

Give much more attention to the sleep quality, maybe I'll have to do exercises to sleep better;

Restart the nofap reboot, which is the only way I think works for me;

I'll be more cautious with my use of interest, specially by smartphone.

That's it, friends. Let's do it again. It is absolutely worth of our efforts. All the time when I was clean was just great. The more far from porn I get, more happy and satisfied I am. I wish this for you too, so never give up!
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
I struggle because of lack of sleep too. I don't usually sleep well. And also when I wake up after sleeping for too little. The latter used to make me start edging to porn fantasies on autopilot and it's happened again some days ago. Fortunately, I started to be able to catch myself after a few minutes but once you get the dopamine going, it gets hard. An episode like this has the ability to make me struggle all day. The fact that I work night shifts doesn't really help. I get urges for porn when I approach 5 in the morning or so. This is something that I don't really know how to handle completely.
 

juancf

New Member
Hi, have you tried Melatonin? this a natural substance to develop circadian cycles of the sleep, the advice is to take one dosis before sleep periodically, and take away from your phone and another distractions, how Jordan Peterson said, try to get a routine, to better your sleep and wake up at the same time every day, this automatization helps to put the order above the chaos, reducing stress and helping to your brain to produce serotonin, the happiness hormone. I hope you get your objectives, regards
 
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