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imsorrynotsorry

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Hello Maglue,

it was a combination of food and exercise. Here's the link to my journal post about it at page 7:
Reply #137 - Libido Food, etc.
Btw i'm 35.

Hey guys,

Thank you. We still must wait for test results but i'm really exited about the baby. Hopefully everything will turn out fine.

Imsor
 

Phineas 808

Well-Known Member
Imsor, I've begun reading your journal with interest. Congratulations on all your recent victories and good news.

Wishing you well in your continued success!
 

imsorrynotsorry

Active Member
Hey guys,

just a quick check in.
The counter says 401 now and i feel a bit unprepared. 400+ is such a huge thing and when i look back 1 year ago it felt impossible to reach. But then, 400+ is nothing compared to the period in which i PMO'd daily, over years. It feels like i should get something for my effort, but it's nonsense and maybe childish. I can sense a feeling to MO and i'm not sure if this is okay or not. Will there ever be a situation in which MO is ok?

With the GF being pregnant intimacy is a rare visitor right now. It's not forbidden, but the moment must be right and her feeling good with it. Anyway, the moments in where i can lure her into bed for intimacy are gone for some time now. Maybe that's the cause for my 'alternative need' to MO. Not sure, anyway, it felt good to write it down and see my thoughts with my own eyes.

Except that, everything is fine. Still waiting for test results. Had an ultrasound last friday. The baby already has 6 cm. It's so unreal seeing this little heart beating so fast and i'm close to tears when i think about the struggle we went through. Hopefully everything turns out perfectly.

Wish everybody a great week.

Imsor
 

EarthWalker

Active Member
🍰🎆 Thank you for sharing Imsor! So happy for you!

For the MO. I am currently working on a theory ... that this desire for MO is coming from some energy becoming stagnant - it doesn't fully circulate.

As I noticed. Sometimes after I MO - I actually feel more energetic, like some weights are lifted. Other-times I feel drained. I'd attribute the MO after which I feel more energetic to energy becoming stagnant.

I tried some "exercise" where you move the energy around the chakras. Like from 1st to 2nd then to 3rd then to 4th...and so on. I am just at the beginning so I can't say more than that. I liked it. The downside to exercises like this they can get a bit "infiltrated" so need to be a bit vigilant. Will see if it will help with my own MO needs.

Have a great week as well.

EW
 

ShadeTrenicin

Well-Known Member
Hey guys,

just a quick check in.
The counter says 401 now and i feel a bit unprepared. 400+ is such a huge thing and when i look back 1 year ago it felt impossible to reach. But then, 400+ is nothing compared to the period in which i PMO'd daily, over years. It feels like i should get something for my effort, but it's nonsense and maybe childish. I can sense a feeling to MO and i'm not sure if this is okay or not. Will there ever be a situation in which MO is ok?

With the GF being pregnant intimacy is a rare visitor right now. It's not forbidden, but the moment must be right and her feeling good with it. Anyway, the moments in where i can lure her into bed for intimacy are gone for some time now. Maybe that's the cause for my 'alternative need' to MO. Not sure, anyway, it felt good to write it down and see my thoughts with my own eyes.

Except that, everything is fine. Still waiting for test results. Had an ultrasound last friday. The baby already has 6 cm. It's so unreal seeing this little heart beating so fast and i'm close to tears when i think about the struggle we went through. Hopefully everything turns out perfectly.

Wish everybody a great week.

Imsor
Hey Imsor.

Once again congrats with the pregnancy. Truly happy for both of you.

Regarding the intimacy; there will be a period of less or even no sex. Regarding the MO, what are you afraid of? Is it fear of fantasizing about P like things? Also what would normal, healty fantasy mean for you?

I do battle with that myself. And what I found is that , for me, it works best before I go to sleep with 'normal fantasy'. That way the MO doesn't have any effect on the day and you can process certain feelings/emotions during sleep.

Good luck and stay strong
 

imsorrynotsorry

Active Member
Hey guys,

very sorry for not coming back to you. I was so busy organizing the year.

First off, i feel fine. I had some time, i told you about, where i MO'd more than once but now im fine again, no MO urge anymore. Maybe it was the 'pressure' of becoming a parent and all. I do feel sometimes that i urge to watch girls and in the streets i do, but not in a digital way. It is still a fight to not look at some pictures on some days, but i can manage right now.

he GF and the baby is fine. She is really doing great with the pregnancy and i trust her with that. It's now the 5th month and we are expecting the baby in novembre.

the GF and i have some old difficulties we want to work on, therefore we are seeing a relationship counsellor once a month. This is a very new experience for me. In a way it's interesting learning about ourselfs stuff.

I do feel i'm not healed from PMO and i habe to be cautios, but i know now that one PMO would not kill all the effort i was working on. This calms me and is making me peaceful and patient with myself

After more than 432 days i can say that morning wood is completely normal again and my sex life is also normal. My erections last again for as long as i want. My libido is swinging up and down, i guess that's normal.

Besides that we are looking forward for our last vacation without a child and preparing the appartement for the baby.
Will keep you updated.

all the best
Imsor

Day 432:
Urge to PMO 0,8/10
Libido 7/10
Beer consumption 5/10
Chocolade 7/10
Morning wood 9/10
 

EarthWalker

Active Member
Thank you for sharing! Awesome. Very happy for you. So beautiful you and your GF are both working on yourselves and on each other. I am getting that you are both interested in growth and make this happen. This is all that matters the rest will follow and is following. So excited for you guys.

432 Days. Ha. What a number! Respect.

Have a great time on vacation.

Much love
EW
 
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