Hey Imsor.Hey guys,
just a quick check in.
The counter says 401 now and i feel a bit unprepared. 400+ is such a huge thing and when i look back 1 year ago it felt impossible to reach. But then, 400+ is nothing compared to the period in which i PMO'd daily, over years. It feels like i should get something for my effort, but it's nonsense and maybe childish. I can sense a feeling to MO and i'm not sure if this is okay or not. Will there ever be a situation in which MO is ok?
With the GF being pregnant intimacy is a rare visitor right now. It's not forbidden, but the moment must be right and her feeling good with it. Anyway, the moments in where i can lure her into bed for intimacy are gone for some time now. Maybe that's the cause for my 'alternative need' to MO. Not sure, anyway, it felt good to write it down and see my thoughts with my own eyes.
Except that, everything is fine. Still waiting for test results. Had an ultrasound last friday. The baby already has 6 cm. It's so unreal seeing this little heart beating so fast and i'm close to tears when i think about the struggle we went through. Hopefully everything turns out perfectly.
Wish everybody a great week.