Hello guys,
thank you all for your kind words which mean a lot to me, especially now.
The story is, last weekend the GF got intimate two times and all worked perfectly. I would say, both times were wonderful and more intense than usual. I don't know why, but i had two intense O and we just had fun. At first i enjoyed it really, being proud in a way, but secondly i was afraid of doing it again soon. I found my self earlier in this reboot at the same place, like Oing twice on a weekend and just the next weekend i was not able to stay hard for long.
And yes, you guess right. On Wednesday we tried to have sex during the day, because maybe she could get pregnant. It became a frustrating day, because it hadn't worked. Not worked at all. In the beginning i was hard for short time, but then i lost it completely finding us both lying there with frustration.
On friday we tried it again and it didn't work either. Like i said, in the beginning i was hard, aroused and all, but then it "collapsed".
Since we try to get her pregnant, there's this extra pressure to "perform" and it's not helping.
I like to think, that this isn't only P-induced. I also think that i'm afraid of loosing my hardness and i definitely lost my self confidence to zero while having sex. So, no confidence, fear of loosing it, uncertainty is an absolute killer for an erection.
She's saying to me that we can just have fun and we should just be happy to do it, without thinking about anything else. I really like this idea, but i don't know how and this is making me so sad, because i know it's true.
I must think about my mindset and how i can positively influence it. Furthermore i have to do some kegeltraining everyday, because i've read this helps to keep up the bloodflow down there.
Your thoughts on that topic or experience are welcomed, feel free to share. Meanwhile i will get back to you with my progress.
Day 252:
Urge to PMO 0,5/10
Libido 2/10
Beer consumption 1/10
Chocolade 6/10
Morning wood 5/10