imsorrynotsorry
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Hey guys, major update today,
the last two times i wrote to you i was pretty frustrated with my progress and in general with the situation.
For you who don't know me, i started my reboot on the 29.03.2020 and i'm at day 274.
Since i've exerperienced problems with my man again, some three weeks ago, i gave him a pause and me and my girlfriend did not much. The first two weeks were absolutely fine and nothing much happened. Like so often, my libido dropped to zero. I think this is repeating: I have 2-3 very good O's with the GF and then i drop in libido to zero for about 2-3 weeks. Last time my GF and i tried to have sex during this time, we both got very frustrated because i couldn't hold a hard one.
Until a week ago nothing changed. It was, maybe the start of my holiday, when my libido came back to 8/10. I told my GF about it and i had to show her how much i'm attracted by her. On the one hand this is positive, but on the other hand it might not be the perfect solution to tell her all the time about me getting attracted by her. Anyway, i was happy again and my penis became more and more sensitive to simple touches of each other. Like when holding her in my arm, lying on the couch, etc. Until two days ago, then it was my libido sky rocketed to 10/10 and i thought yes, we should give it a go. Only this time i want to avoid O for myself. Except that, everything is possible.
I've read on some websites about "the man should hold his semen back" to save this precious energy in his body. You can look that up by google 'taoism orgasm'. In theory, having sex with an erection and an orgasm are two seperate things. Having sex without orgasm leads to something completey new, because the male orgasm isn't the end of the show anymore.
Today my GF and i tried it out and i'm excited about it. It was a very new experience, because she knew that it's not her job anymore to help me with my O and i focused only on her. Without the pressure to O, it's all about touching and seeing each other. I was very very aroused, like 10/10. It also involved penetration, but i managed to stop early enough.
For me it was perfect, although i don't think my libido will drop soon.
I know two things now:
1. the experience was so different from what P told me over years. P is showing intimacy without emotions, fake and pretended performances. P is making things worse, not better.
2. i'm working perfectly normal, but Oing might still be a problem
I've reached 274 days today and still me reboot isn't over. Maybe i understand better now why people promote hard mode. I'll try to avoid O's as good as possible. I'll save them for the moment i really need them.
Because of the high libido i'm craving for pictures of girls or stuff like that. I know, this is just a simple mechanism from my brain and hopefully it goes away one day. When the libido is that high, i must pay attention when consuming alcohol.
My rule of not touching myself at all wasn't a rule the last days, because i recognised my man being hard all the time. I must stick to the rule and it will be better with the urges.
I hope everyone is alright. Thanks again EarthWalker, time was what i needed.
Day 274:
Urge to PMO 2/10
Libido 9,5/10
Beer consumption 6/10
Chocolade 3/10
Morning wood 5/10
the last two times i wrote to you i was pretty frustrated with my progress and in general with the situation.
For you who don't know me, i started my reboot on the 29.03.2020 and i'm at day 274.
Since i've exerperienced problems with my man again, some three weeks ago, i gave him a pause and me and my girlfriend did not much. The first two weeks were absolutely fine and nothing much happened. Like so often, my libido dropped to zero. I think this is repeating: I have 2-3 very good O's with the GF and then i drop in libido to zero for about 2-3 weeks. Last time my GF and i tried to have sex during this time, we both got very frustrated because i couldn't hold a hard one.
Until a week ago nothing changed. It was, maybe the start of my holiday, when my libido came back to 8/10. I told my GF about it and i had to show her how much i'm attracted by her. On the one hand this is positive, but on the other hand it might not be the perfect solution to tell her all the time about me getting attracted by her. Anyway, i was happy again and my penis became more and more sensitive to simple touches of each other. Like when holding her in my arm, lying on the couch, etc. Until two days ago, then it was my libido sky rocketed to 10/10 and i thought yes, we should give it a go. Only this time i want to avoid O for myself. Except that, everything is possible.
I've read on some websites about "the man should hold his semen back" to save this precious energy in his body. You can look that up by google 'taoism orgasm'. In theory, having sex with an erection and an orgasm are two seperate things. Having sex without orgasm leads to something completey new, because the male orgasm isn't the end of the show anymore.
Today my GF and i tried it out and i'm excited about it. It was a very new experience, because she knew that it's not her job anymore to help me with my O and i focused only on her. Without the pressure to O, it's all about touching and seeing each other. I was very very aroused, like 10/10. It also involved penetration, but i managed to stop early enough.
For me it was perfect, although i don't think my libido will drop soon.
I know two things now:
1. the experience was so different from what P told me over years. P is showing intimacy without emotions, fake and pretended performances. P is making things worse, not better.
2. i'm working perfectly normal, but Oing might still be a problem
I've reached 274 days today and still me reboot isn't over. Maybe i understand better now why people promote hard mode. I'll try to avoid O's as good as possible. I'll save them for the moment i really need them.
Because of the high libido i'm craving for pictures of girls or stuff like that. I know, this is just a simple mechanism from my brain and hopefully it goes away one day. When the libido is that high, i must pay attention when consuming alcohol.
My rule of not touching myself at all wasn't a rule the last days, because i recognised my man being hard all the time. I must stick to the rule and it will be better with the urges.
I hope everyone is alright. Thanks again EarthWalker, time was what i needed.
Day 274:
Urge to PMO 2/10
Libido 9,5/10
Beer consumption 6/10
Chocolade 3/10
Morning wood 5/10