Had a P dream. I caught myself and woke up.
This is the hardest issue with P is to separate the enmeshed sexual energy with the pixels. I have conditioned my sexual energy with the pixels.
But my awareness is increasing. I find it easier yet still hard to not get caught up in wanting more of the sexual bliss feeling.
After waking up from the P dream, felt horny, but not wanting more of this feeling, I noticed myself soon enough thinking about my day and not about P.
This dis-associating of my own legit, valid, innate sexual energy and the pixels, porn, lust, inorganic virus. This is quite a challenge. Probably the biggest challenge I have faced in my life so far. So insidious and bellow the radar. But my radar and awareness is getting better.
Onwards and upwards!
EW