1. Yeah P is a big performance and yeah its fake but i think something to be mindful is that the people "Performing" in P are real people who live real life. Obviously they are people in pain and many of them are probably porn/sex addicts themselves. Well just addicts in general I imagine. I think what I am trying to say yes view P as fake but maybe not go down the path of dehumanising people in it. I imagine that most of the performers would be doing something else if their lives were more settled or if their pain was addressed.Been thinking. What is working for me:
1. Need to see P as fake. P is fake indeed. I think we can all reach consensus on this. This is an illusion. Just like action movies on TV. We all know it is fake. But with P our brain is tricked into thinking this is the real deal. Hard time seeing this as a Hollywood action movie. The people in P are technically actors and performers. Like in movies or theatre. So for me this is something that is becoming quite important to cultivate this skill of seeing P as fake.
2. Be willing to face life. This is the core I'd say. I doubt anyone who is truly happy with their life has a P problem. Life can be quite unjust, cruel and unforgiving. I'd say people coming from very bad families - bad in terms of - their parents didn't provide the necessary nourishment, values, structure, healthy boundaries, etc. Like when I see people who have their shit together tend to come from well off families. So it is easy to say, life is unjust, FML, let's just do P. But what is the alternative? Well. Face life. No shame in feeling overwhelmed with life and going with P. But I think we can reach consensus in that going with P just doesn't feel right. There is something innate in our psyche that just doesn't accept P. This is now who are we suppose to do. So what can we do? Stand up straight, clean your room, go to the guy, get fit, move on.
Hey man. Doing well in regards to P. Losing interest in P quite a lot.How you keeping @EarthWalker ?
Yeah finding the right balance is important and its good to find time to truly connect to people but also give ourselves time to be mindful by ourselves and recharge. The world is a hectic place.Hey man. Doing well in regards to P. Losing interest in P quite a lot.
As what you are sharing on your journal. I think this is what it comes to. Becoming at least somewhat proficient in dealing with personal relationships. Becoming proficient with stress management. Being able to be alone and also be able to work well with others. Becoming a well functioning individual and also a well functioning member of society. Coming to realize everything is important. Physical, mental, emotional, relationships, taking breaks, working. Too much work not good, to little work not good. Finding balance in all things. P just loses its charm.
Bought myself a new pan recently. I guess this is what being adult is all about. Being happy when you buy yourself a new pan or swap for new kitchen wipe for doing the dishes.
Overall feeling a bit bored. It is what it is.
Take care everyone
Haha. We are officially adults now.Me and my partner bought new dinner bowls the other day. Younger me would be judging current me for how excited I was about them haha.
I am slowly adding some items on my schedule. Like going to yoga class. I'd like to add some more. Going to some class where we make some physical stuff. I took an art class a few years ago. I loved it. Maybe time to do it again. The finances are a bit strained but getting better.How are you dealing with the boredom? If you like reading I recommend "a boy his dog and the end of the world" I finished it last week and really enjoyed it.
Overall it is getting easier and easier for me to stay away from P.
I don't want to reject P or label it as evil or bad. I want P to organically fade out of my life because it doesn't bring me the greatest happiness. This has started to happen.