Panic attack. I think it is definitely related. My brain panicking...about no more P. Also this is a pretty major change. I think normal to be anxious about it. Also the brain rebooting/rebalancing. The dopamine system is rebooting.
...So I think panic attack might be just the brain freaking out on the changes? Also some blisters are coming off. Like P is this giant blister we put on our life. When the blister comes off....there is a whole lot of shit that is under the blister that needs to be cleared. Also a reason for panic attack.
I'd say panic attack is a sign of recovery in this case. I haven't had much problems with the panic attacks lately. There was one pretty major one. Then maybe one minor one. Now I am all good. How are you dealing with panic attacks?
EW, I think I can relate somewhat to relate to this. My anxiety at leaving porn behind was in the form of nostalgia, I think. It almost felt like I was leaving behind a familiar friend, one who had always been there for me, one I can always turn to when I'm
hungry-angry-lonely-tired, as they say.
If the wife fought with me, if I was stressed, felt rejected, or lonely, I could always seek out self-medication through P/MO and find some temporary comfort- before compacting my woes through these behaviors.
There was a moment about 3 weeks or so ago where I felt a little panicky, that I'm actually 'doing this', and leaving this stuff behind. It was like having my 'security blanket' taken away...
How did I deal with this? I had to recast it in my mind, the reasons this had to be done. I also had to see these feelings as 'trickery' from the lower part of the brain, simply trying to reengage in the former flow of dopamine. I also had to see the 'new me' after porn, after these addictions were overcome.
It may not be much, but I hope this is helpful.