Yesterday motivation was down but I eventually dragged my ass to the beach and ran a 5k. By the end of the run, which was really a jog
I was pumped, and ready to take on the world (this is the high I get from running.) I used one of the boulders (coastal erosion protection, 3ft diameter) to do steps. Then amongst the boulders I noticed a 20kg rock, so I picked that up, held it between my chest and did more steps on to that boulder
then I sprinted a 100m with the rock.
More and more lately when I exercise I get this realisation that this is it for me, that its not even what I need, it's what I love. I can feel unstoppable.
I dunno how to describe it. It's easy for me. If they say run a hill twice, I'll say let's run it four times, or find a bigger hill.
Its the way I am build and regardless of porn addiction, withdrawal, rebooting I have always enjoyed exercise so much.
It took me awhile to realise that not everyone likes running around in the rain, or going in the sea when it's
(thats a different buzz!)
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I suppose I should mention where I am with this porn addiction. Well, I don't watch porn. Simple as that. Thats not a problem.
Porn subs is more difficult. I really cant open social media apps, it's just full of women barely dressed. Fb is alright, but tiktok and insta forget about it.
I get morning wood pretty much every day now and I never had morning wood while using porn NEVER.
I had one the other morning and tbh I was impressed
I went thru a flatline myself and it's heartbreaking but I'm proof that eventually erections return.