A couple of months ago I finished up at work. I was offered a position further across the country but I declined as I thought that I needed some time to get my head together, which I did. However, being out of work, well I wonder if I really didn't just orchestrate all this so I would have time alone. Is this addiction this powerful?
I've really ran myself into the ground. I do enjoy exercise, and I run maybe 30-40km per week, cycle 50km per week and lift some weights too but it seems it's all getting too much.
I guess I thought it was a "cheat," perhaps a way to keep porn in my life.... I'll just train a lot, I mean if I look good, maybe I can have it all. Not so.
There is no substitute for one-day clean. "Nothing compares to you." One-day, in that day, in that moment there is only one-day. You can rack up as many days as you want but it's all about today and what you do. (Just a little note to myself.)
If your here, I guess your an addict like me. I was going to write about my porn consumption but this isn't a competition. It doesn't matter how much porn we watch or how long our porn binges are, we need to give it ALL up.
Last week I went two-days with no porn...but once i tripped my brain made up for those two lost days, I now feel nothing. I know this passes.
The remorse of a porn junkie.