"...tread softly because you tread on my dreams." W.B.Yeats
In reference to the destruction of dreams from porn addiction. If only I had known.
Imho It's not as simple as abstaining from porn, there is so much damage (I'm realising.)
Depression is a big hitter - being surrounded by ppl whom love you and feeling alone hurts and living minute to minute in hope of just some small relief.
Then you have the depersonalisation - playing out your life like a video clip.
The libido - couldn't get enough of porn, now cant get up to porn (I tried once, the stress) can get an erection easy but can't keep it.
Feeling inadequate with nothing to offer anyone and nothing left to say.
I realised now that while I was using porn and thought I was gaining something (an orgasm, a high) in reality I was giving a little piece of me away everytime.
My penance may be that once I found love, I was too broken to be Ioved.
In reference to the destruction of dreams from porn addiction. If only I had known.
Imho It's not as simple as abstaining from porn, there is so much damage (I'm realising.)
Depression is a big hitter - being surrounded by ppl whom love you and feeling alone hurts and living minute to minute in hope of just some small relief.
Then you have the depersonalisation - playing out your life like a video clip.
The libido - couldn't get enough of porn, now cant get up to porn (I tried once, the stress) can get an erection easy but can't keep it.
Feeling inadequate with nothing to offer anyone and nothing left to say.
I realised now that while I was using porn and thought I was gaining something (an orgasm, a high) in reality I was giving a little piece of me away everytime.
My penance may be that once I found love, I was too broken to be Ioved.
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