I chatted with a man from the SLAA today. I don't want to sound like an asshole but to me there seemed to be so much secrecy attached to this addiction.
I am not going to whimper from this crap anymore, i'll sit here and squirm if needs be.
I dont need an accountability partner because I have accepted that I'm accountable for my actions (that's just me.)
I dont need a porn blocker app on my phone. I'm my own porn blocker. To me doing that gives porn back the power. Maybe I'm wrong but this I my approach now.
I want to live life, and the only way forward is to heal.
I can see the benefits already. Energy, calmness, clarity, not being afraid of my fn shadow, this is not always but better than never.
And ladt night, for the first night my brain seemed to fill with sleepy chemicals and i fell asleep.
I use to have horrible intrusive sexual thoughts, about everyone and everything. I knew those thoughts to be untrue. You know what? Those thoughts are gone, almost completely and thats something I never thought would happen.
Like
@Blondie said its a (big fat fn) lie.
Anyway tomorrow is my next goal