.... unfortunately i have somehow ended up in an affair. Well not somehow, it did happen because I was on for it. Hand on heart, I just left the door open for her and I knew eventually she'd walk in.
Its something that doesn't sit well with me but becomes something that goes in a box in the back of my mind and that's not acknowledged until we meet or text. Its not a nice way to be, or live tbh and as tempting as it is, I wouldn't recommend it. It causes stress.
I mean my reboot is going great. My mood is great, my energy is back, this morning I had an erection for like 3hrs. I can climax with a "partner" and it feels great and everything is looking up, but I fucked up didn't I.
I just wanted a connection so much, thats all. Just to feel joy in that way.
I really am lost with this now.
Its something that doesn't sit well with me but becomes something that goes in a box in the back of my mind and that's not acknowledged until we meet or text. Its not a nice way to be, or live tbh and as tempting as it is, I wouldn't recommend it. It causes stress.
I mean my reboot is going great. My mood is great, my energy is back, this morning I had an erection for like 3hrs. I can climax with a "partner" and it feels great and everything is looking up, but I fucked up didn't I.
I just wanted a connection so much, thats all. Just to feel joy in that way.
I really am lost with this now.