AStansfield
Active Member
Background
Been PMO since mid teens (~15/16). Around 19, when I entered University, I would say it got really severe (PMO anywhere from 3-12 times a day up until a week ago). I tried quitting "casually" before but only managed 16 days, however I never encountered this forum at that point or anything similar (was religiously motivated).
Spring of 2019 I got into my first serious relationship, and at that time I didn't understand it but I had PIED. I thought it was just newbie anxiety or something like that. It didn't occur to me that PMOing actively during the relationship was damaging it as much as it did.
Fast forward to June 17th 2020, a few days after my 23rd birthday and I find out about this site from youtube. Due to being a Medical Student, what I've read really resonated with me, so I've been giving it my all 8). I'm gotten past the first week, but a strange occurrence made me want to reach out ot this forum.
Journal Beginning
>Days 1-6 No PMO: Up and down in terms of difficulty - any fantasizing was limited and wasn't about P but rather about my past relationship (at this time it's been around a year since the last time i've had S). Cravings were bad after a few days (Days 3/4), but I persevered by making every new tab/google chrome open up to the yourbrainonporn website.
>Day 7 No PMO: This was a day I had an exam in university, so stress/tension was high. It went well but I was very anxious the whole day due to it being in the afternoon and I'm an early riser (5AM usually). After success, I went out to celebrate with a friend of mine and had a nice unhealthy cheat meal ;D.
>Day 8 No PMO (Morning, Today as of this post). Preface: I noticed in the past week that I only had one wet dream and that was on Day 2. Morning W had only occurred once as well in the first week. Upon waking I decided to get another hour of sleep and during hypnagogia I had this strange "dream" where I was in my bed PMO'ing. I then woke up pretty freaked out because I felt like I just threw away my 1 week streak. Then I realized it was all just a dream. This prompted me to begin this journal and document occurrences like that and open up the discussion to more experienced rebooting members of the community.
Thank you for reading!
Been PMO since mid teens (~15/16). Around 19, when I entered University, I would say it got really severe (PMO anywhere from 3-12 times a day up until a week ago). I tried quitting "casually" before but only managed 16 days, however I never encountered this forum at that point or anything similar (was religiously motivated).
Spring of 2019 I got into my first serious relationship, and at that time I didn't understand it but I had PIED. I thought it was just newbie anxiety or something like that. It didn't occur to me that PMOing actively during the relationship was damaging it as much as it did.
Fast forward to June 17th 2020, a few days after my 23rd birthday and I find out about this site from youtube. Due to being a Medical Student, what I've read really resonated with me, so I've been giving it my all 8). I'm gotten past the first week, but a strange occurrence made me want to reach out ot this forum.
Journal Beginning
>Days 1-6 No PMO: Up and down in terms of difficulty - any fantasizing was limited and wasn't about P but rather about my past relationship (at this time it's been around a year since the last time i've had S). Cravings were bad after a few days (Days 3/4), but I persevered by making every new tab/google chrome open up to the yourbrainonporn website.
>Day 7 No PMO: This was a day I had an exam in university, so stress/tension was high. It went well but I was very anxious the whole day due to it being in the afternoon and I'm an early riser (5AM usually). After success, I went out to celebrate with a friend of mine and had a nice unhealthy cheat meal ;D.
>Day 8 No PMO (Morning, Today as of this post). Preface: I noticed in the past week that I only had one wet dream and that was on Day 2. Morning W had only occurred once as well in the first week. Upon waking I decided to get another hour of sleep and during hypnagogia I had this strange "dream" where I was in my bed PMO'ing. I then woke up pretty freaked out because I felt like I just threw away my 1 week streak. Then I realized it was all just a dream. This prompted me to begin this journal and document occurrences like that and open up the discussion to more experienced rebooting members of the community.
Thank you for reading!