Great! You stopped it before it could claw its way into you!
Unfortunately, music videos are rife with filth and sexualized imagery. Same for slut-platforms like Instagram and TikTok, places where women with low self esteem think the only way to prove their worth is to get their tits out! Awful.
Anyway, be aware of those things, Im sure you are anyway and enjoy the flatline!
Day 18. The cravings are back. I think I'm craving masturbation more then watching porn. I think if I masturbate at this early stage, I'll probably relapse to porn.
For anyone who had sunk to the depths of sissy porn and hypnosis, the urge to watch this kind of shit has pretty much disappeared. I was only thinking today how absurd they are as porn genres/fetishes. So, hang in there. These porn induced fetishes do fade away. It's always possible that my brain might start craving that kind of stuff again, but at the moment I seem to be reverting back to my innate sexuality. I saw a young woman today and really noticed her. My brain, is trying to remember how things used to be.
I'm getting a bit impatient now though. It's only been 18 days but it feels like months. I just want to recover so I can have sex with my partner and continue having a full sexual relationship with her. I feel so guilty that she's been neglected because of my selfish attitude.
Anyway, day 18. I've got the upper hand at the moment!
You know, i found that wanking actually helped me to get out of a flatline. It didnt cause any cravings for porn, if anythung it only proved to me that I dont need porn to jerk off, i could have a "classic wank" like the days before porn.
I'm still flatlining. It's frustrating in one sense because I'd just like to be able to manually get an erection just for the sake of it. On the other hand, it's a blessing in disguise because I just don't feel like watching porn.
I'm almost at the 30 day mark and I feel positive about this reboot.
Today is day 28. I am actually very surprised at how relatively easy this has been, especially if I consider that I spend many hours alone in front of my computer due to the current situation with the pandemic. The odd porn thought comes up, but so far it's been easy to push them out of my mind. My previous reboots really weren't like this. I remember it being a constant daily struggle.
My fantasies usually settled on some submissive situation involving a transexual or sometimes men (I'm a straight guy). These have almost completely vanished, even after only 28 days. I'm waking up with erections. I've never had a wet dream in my life, so I don't expect to start having them now. Frustratingly, I can't get an erection during the day, even if I try stroking myself, so I'm technically still in my 'flatline'.
I've started noticing women again. They are just 'flashes' of interest, but this is a huge improvement.
I'm under no illusion that there's still a long way to go, but if the next 28 day are like the last, I think I could finally beat this addiction.
I feel good today. Today is Day 30 without porn or masturbation.
I'm still in my flatline. It's still early days, but I think 30 days without has weakened a lot of the connections to go looking for porn. In fact it hasn't even crossed my mind to look at porn for the last two days.
So, a third of the way to 90 days, but I know, because I've done this several times before, I won't really see the benefits until much further down the line. It's difficult, but patience is the key.
Last night I had a series of erotic dreams and woke up several times with a raging erection that wouldn't go down. When I finally got up this morning I was walking round with a powerful erection. I haven't had an erection like this for years. I also hardly ever have erotic dreams. I suspect my mind never had to process or produce erotic thoughts because I was watching porn every day. I felt so good this morning knowing that I can still get solid erections that refuse to go down.
It's weird because if I stroke myself I can't get hard. Anyway, I think morning erections are a sign of things getting better. The problem with rebooting is that it isn't linear, so I won't be surprised in the morning erections disappear for a while again.
We've just got to be patient. This is the key! Don't try and rush things and just let our brains heal themselves in their own time.
Well done on being off porn for a few weeks. That in itself is a great achievement! I wish you luck! You will heal. Just be patient.
Early on into my reboot I was getting good morning erections. Now, that's all changed. My flatline seems to have become even deeper. This is a bit frustrating because I was full of early optimism that I might just reboot quickly this time. Right now, I think this is going to be a long one. I've said it many times before, rebooting isn't linear, so I might start getting strong erections again in the next few days.
I've tried stroking myself to see if I can get hard, but there is zero life down there. I had some really strong porn cravings on Friday, and they carried on a bit through Saturday. I managed to fight the urges and right now I've got no urge to look at porn.
My partner seems much more interested and tactile at the moment. It's almost as if she can sense there are changes taking place in my body. Our sex life has been non existent for so long that we haven't even tried to simulate each other. She seems more interested in touching and caressing now. I can only hope that this is a sign that perhaps testosterone levels are increasing.
It's been about 55 days since I last had an erection. My flatline is heavy and shows no sighs of losing its grip. The only positive is that porn cravings are pretty weak. I've had a few, but nothing I couldn't dismiss. I think this is going to be a long reboot. I remain 100% committed to beating this addiction. I know that a relapse can happen when you least expect it so I can't lower my guard.
90 days to recovery is a pipe dream, at least for me. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. Every 24 hours is a victory.
Day 64! No porn, no masturbation, no sign of an end to the flatline.
I really feel the need for some release. I desperately want to masturbate and made the decision this morning to give myself an orgasm. The problem is that I just can't get myself fully erect. I can achieve a 60% erection at best. In my opinion, masturbating with a semi-erection is a very bad idea, so I've decided to give up on the idea of masturbating for the time being.
It's only 64 days. It feels like a lot longer. I feel like I've been going monk mode for years now! This is fucking weird. I just feel completely emasculated. I haven't even had strong morning erection, even when I had the urge to piss. There is just nothing.
I've had some strong porn cravings over the last 48 hours too. I think this was triggered by a YouTube music video I watched. Everything is so sexualised nowadays. I think I can fight the urges without much difficulty. In fact, I think I'm doing really well considering I have a lot of down time due to Covid and I'm on the internet a lot. I just feel like I've had my penis surgically removed, and it's really unsettling.
From what you're writing I feel like i'm sensing a relapse coming. I think you've got to nail down not touching yourself Mat. A rule that helps me is this, if you can't sustain an erection without any physical or visual stimulation for several minutes then you shouldn't be touching yourself or contemplating anything involving sex or masturbation.