Day 1- It was difficult to push thru today. I relapsed 2 days ago and chased yesterday. Ive been battling other addictions along with this one and I realize that my addictions go hand in hand with each other.
Our minds are so sneaky. They want those familiar dopamine hits. It takes them a while to find healthier things more fulfilling. It gets easier...if you continue to deprive them of the familiar ones and substitute exercise, socializing, accomplishment, etc.
Day 11 hard mode today. I didn't want to post on here until I made it to a good no PMO streak. It took me a while to stay consistent and get past a week without relapsing but I can feel my will power getting stronger with each day of resistance to PMO. Strong urges to look at P yesterday but I got thru it and made it thru to another day. Feeling high off the this momentum and will keep it going.
Hey dude keep killing it. Just a note from my experience: when I relapsed I often found myself holding off on posting until I got a good streak, but for me that was counterproductive. The daily accountability helps me a lot but also I found avoiding coming until I got a good streak made it really easy to justify back to back days or multiple relapses in a short period while I was gone since I didn’t have to suffer through admitting any of them. So I put it off a lot.
Day 13- Morning wood the last few days. I went for a run 2 days ago and that helped a lot to keep me busy and I really felt great about that afterwards. I'm starting to realize that exercise or any kind of sport daily or every other day is absolutely essential to my reboot. Cleaning is also a task that helps to keep me busy and also does something that I believe is also essential to my reboot. Jordan Peterson has a quote about cleaning your room and I agree with him on that because there really is some truth behind that. Keeping my place clean of the old habit of PMO.
So I've fallen back into my old ways and have had no will power to even make it thru one week no PMO. I want to get back on this path to giving it up. I've just turned 38 a few weeks ago and here I am doing the same shit I've been doing the last few decades. Im going to give it another go and start fresh. Tomorrow is a new day.
Day 6- I had a busy day today. I had a down mood after work and it was lingering with me for a while. Moments of feeling down were always a trigger for me to look at P but I decided to uplift myself with some meditation and exercise. I felt good afterwards and was glad that I made it thru another day without Porn.
Day 9- Feelings up and down today but got thru the worst of it. The best thing I've got going for me right now is being disciplined enough not to PMO. Tomorrow's a new day and I know Ill feel better in the morning.