Starting a new journey to recovery

Overall good vibes about being PMO free for a week and Im not interested in looking at P although the thought of an O is lingering in the back of my mind. I didn't have any MW today and my libido is defo not there. I know that I need to give my mind and body a long term break to really see the results of a reboot but I think there are instant results as well and having lots of energy is one. There is also a kind of high that I get by strengthening my will power every time that I don't give into the desire to look at P, which will most likely lead to MO, and fall back into that vicious circle. WiIl power is a powerful tool that can get me thru almost any circumstance if I properly train and work it like a muscle.
 
9th day of Hardmode and feeling more of an itch than usual. I notice Ive been objectifying women a lot and when I see an attractive woman I cant help it sometimes with the hot outfits the ladies are starting to wear. It makes me want to look at P a bit but I know part of my reboot is also letting go of the way P has made me think of women as objects. Focusing on my recovery and using mental visualization techniques of me overcoming this way of thinking and my addiction is motivating me to reinvent myself and create a new life without P. The life that I want to life will be sincere and rebooting is defo a part of the road that leads there.
 
I've made it to day 10 hard mode and ffs it was a hell of a struggle yesterday. I reached a point of boredom and had to get off of my computer and take a walk. Upon retuning I could feel a few things trying to trigger me to fall into PMO but I resisted and started reading success stories on the forum then went to bed early. I'm not really horny and I haven't had any MW these last few days but the thought of having an O is lingering. I've realized that my self esteem is low sometimes and picking myself requires some kind of confidence boosting activity, like working out. I went for a run and it pulled me out of feeling down today. I'm ready to take on the day and continue on my journey of recovery.
 
So Ive relapsed and have had the chaser effect the last few days which ultimately lead me to a binge yesterday. I feel like I need to balance out and thats why Im back to day 1 today. There's quite a lot of things that trigger me and part of it is being alone and not having a relationship at all atm. It can feel quite difficult to reboot in those times of loneliness or low self esteem. Im happy about my life and comfortable with myself but we all have our rough days and its those days when I have to be stronger to stick with my reboot and not fall into this vicious circle of Pmo as a coping mechanism. I know I want a relationship and I know it will come sooner or later but I have to be ready and that means working on getting myself in a balanced state sexually and kicking this Pmo habit. Rebooting is essential to restoring my libido, energy and overall sex health.
 
The past few days have been good, no desire to look a P. Haven't had any MW and been working out, which felt good, and is supporting my goal to keep rebooting. Its only day 3 for me again and I know the real challenge awaits me around Day 10-20. I'm going to be stronger this time. I absolutely need a break from PMO and 30 days is the first challenge for me I think. I've deleted socials again and that is also supporting my path to reboot. Will check back in tom
 

yogi

Active Member
Don't fret over the relapse.

The desire to look at porn has a very predictable pattern, from what I have observed personally.
It's not there for the first 1 or 2 days as your brain is already exhausted. Then it slowly returns.

You will be able to make it to 30 days. Stay strong!
 
Thanks for the encouragement Yogi.
I'm on day 5 now and hanging in there by a thread but happy that I haven't give in to PMO. I'm not having any morning wood but I have a few moments some days when I get a hard on, usually when laying in bed. Im going to continue with this journey and abstain from any form of P.
 
Today is day 3 hard mode (again) and also with the summer solstice being yesterday/today in the northern hemisphere it is a symbolic time of change or renewal. Im focusing my thoughts on growth and moving forward from this long chapter in my life. PMO is deeply rooted in my lifestyle and the desire to keep going in that vicious circle is strong but I know that I can overcome it. The success stories on here are truly inspirational and reading other's journals gives me hope.

Today's stoic quote:
“The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.” Marcus Aurelius
 
Today is day 3 hard mode (again) and also with the summer solstice being yesterday/today in the northern hemisphere it is a symbolic time of change or renewal. Im focusing my thoughts on growth and moving forward from this long chapter in my life. PMO is deeply rooted in my lifestyle and the desire to keep going in that vicious circle is strong but I know that I can overcome it. The success stories on here are truly inspirational and reading other's journals gives me hope.

Today's stoic quote:
“The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.” Marcus Aurelius
I love that Marcus Aurelius quote. Thank you!
 
I have reached day 6 hard mode and withdrawals were very strong 2 days ago. It seemed as if I was searching for that feel good dopamine hit that I'm missing but I didn't look at any P and resorted to social media instead. I've deleted my socials last night just to take a break because I've been seeing sexual content and even though its not nudity I don't think its beneficial to my reboot and too much social media consumption in general is just toxic in my opinion. Anyway, I had some great MW today and I can see some instant results in just this week of rebooting. I like the way I feel without PMO and I want to continue with this journey to recovery and break away from this addiction. Stay strong If your reading this, We can do it
 
Day 9 hard mode and I'm feeling in tune with my body sexually. I had MW again and strong feelings of general horniness, like my libido has come back. I'm not looking at any content that would arouse me, just good ol fashion natural sexual energy. I also do yoga from time to time and I feel that the stretching and deep breathing in general allows for better blood flow which could be one reason ive got massive MW almost everyday. I like it and feel like I'm restoring myself. I can only imagine how good Id be in bed because atm I'm not in any relationships. You guys that have wife's and girlfriends are lucky to be able to test out your libido to see if its coming back for real or not. Maybe its better for me anyway that I restrain even from sex with a real woman so that I really reap the benefits of this reboot. I wonder what the results will be after 30 days of rebooting in hard mode. Im determined to make it there and see. I also can see myself being more ready to test out my libido in a month's time and hook up with a woman.
 

yogi

Active Member
Good going on day 9!
Not all of us have wives or girlfriends to test out our libido.

And even if we have a fiancee (like myself) not everyone has sex before marriage (like yours truly).
Keep posting!
 
Hello again RN,
Ive returned to the forum because my PMO addiction has made me feel worst about my life and I feel helpless at times trying to fight this battle on my own. I know that there is hope for me because Ive made it to 30 days no PMO once upon a time and I know that I can do it again. It was this forum and the support of others that got me thru the toughest times of those 30 days and I believe being on here is fundamental for my reboot so Im going to set the tone everyday by posting here and reading success stories when im weak. Im currently on day 2 of no PMO and Id like to continue my journey on the hardmode path. The time for cutting out toxic habits in my life is now and PMO is on the top of that list.
 
Making some progress on my journey and currently at Day 6 hard mode. Its been a struggle at times during the week but I'm feeling better about myself, my life and have a general sense of well being. I'm off of socials for about a week too and its been helpful. There were times when the thought passed in my mind but I did not entertain it and quickly thought about something else. Keeping my mind busy most of the day and getting out of house when I feel a strong urge to PMO has been helpful. Will keep going and report back on my progress again soon
 
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Day 9 hard-mode has been easy so far and I know the real test of my journey will come sooner or later. For now my progress has been consistent and I’m not giving in to the few thoughts that I had of PMO’ing. Haven’t looked at any social media and have just been restraining myself from any kind stimulating forms of entertainment.
 
Day 12 hardmode and pushing thru on this no PMO path. Very strong MW today and It feels like my body is restoring itself with each day that passes. Yesterday was the first day that Ive felt real strong feelings of withdrawal from PMO and also because I've been super horny lately. It was a challenge to get out of that feeling of wanting to watch P, I was literally a few clicks from a P site but I quickly went into another activity and started reading a success story on the forum of someone who is on 16 weeks hard mode. It was inspirational and defo saved me from myself at that moment. My journey continues and I feel good real about not giving in to P. Hang in there friends, were gonna make it thru the tough times of this reboot.
 
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