Starting a new journey to recovery

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 25 became day 0 for me and although the PMO was defo not worth it I do feel like Im stronger than before and have less cravings in these days after. Today is Day 2 no PMO and the desire to view P is hardly there. I know I relapsed because I was viewing P for a few seconds too much and was eventually triggered, lol. I have to avoid viewing and that is the real challenge that I will overcome this time around.


Thanks Akpal, Time for me to start a new and longer streak.
 

akpal2

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I know RDR, I am struggling with my streak again as well. I have MO'd twice in the last few days but I have been trying to get it through touch alone and not through having thoughts in my mind. Today is a tough day. I want to sexting/porn today but trying to avoid it.
 

TheHeartacheKid

Active Member
Hi rtr,

Thank you for sharing your streaks, it really is motivation.  You've made some very nice streaks, and even after relapse, you're realizing this is not something you want to continue, or even have the desire to.  So definitely making some nice progress!  Keep it up.

In one of your posts you mentioned looking at the new scenes on your favorite sites.  I use to do this everyday, especially during the pandemic and working from home.  I couldn't wait to see what was new, was there something new that I would like, and if there was, bookmark it.  It's brutal.

Please keep posting, your streaks so far are very inspiring!  Stay strong!
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 5 - 1 week no PMO and it felt even quicker than the last time. Ive had slight triggers to view P but nothing too overwhelming yet. Ive had to tell myself in a pep talk kind of way that I dont want to have to start all over again and reset my streak. Sometimes that helps me get over the feeling of wanting to view P. One thing that also keeps me going is seeing the support from people that are following my journey and also giving support to others on their's. You guys pick me up especially during those times when Im emotionally down and feel stronger urges to want to PMO.
Thanks for the motivation and support TheHeartachekid, Akpal2 and Batman99. Im going to keep strong and carry on with this reboot and live my life in the way of the superior man, a man that has total control over his impulses, feelings and thoughts.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 8 no PMO and having strong erections in the middle of the night again. Physically horny and there are slight desires to view P but Im feeling good about not viewing any and decided to write on here and reaffirm to myself that Im not going to give into viewing this time around.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 10- Strong erections again in the morning and an urge to Pmo because Im horny but keeping myself from looking at P. I know its not going to be worth it if I did Pmo and in the end Id just end up feeling more shitty about it. My body is rebooting as well as my mind and Im not going to give into P as a way of stimulating myself. Social media is defo a trigger and had to get off some of them for a week. I have to reprogram my self to be stimulated by real affection and experiences not artificial content of any kind, not just P.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 12 no PMO and reflecting on my progress so far. Its been just over a month and a half since I returned to the forum. It feels great to look back and see that I've only PMO'd once in that time period. It was something that just a few months ago felt like it might've been impossible for me but Im proud of this small achievement and look forward to progressing beyond my previous goals. My body and mind are resetting and Im noticing improvements in my erections as well as a stronger will power to resist P in moments of strong temptation.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Thanks akpal2. Sad to say Ive snapped my streak and am back at day 1 today. I stopped posting on here frequently, had a lot of pressure on myself last week and lost my concentration. Im going to post on here regularly again to keep myself poised and focused.
 

akpal2

Well-Known Member
RDR as long as you can avoid falling into the chaser effect trap, you will notice that you will notice that your last 2-3 week streak has made you stronger. Get past the first week and it will be better.

Try to beat your previous streak this time. We're all rooting for you.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Thanks AP2, Im on day 3 no PMO now and although its been challenging Im pushing to make it back to a week and get past the chaser trap. Im noticing from my last 2 streaks that the time I feel more pressured to want to PMO is between days 15-20 and I need to be at my strongest during that time.
 

akpal2

Well-Known Member
Well done RDR. I find the first 2 weeks to be the toughest..if I can breeze through the first 2 weeks, I can go far. But everybody is different, so be on the lookout for cues and triggers.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 4 and the urge to look at P is quite strong. There are several triggers that I know are not helping like social media. Im going to take a break and cleanse from instagram and tik tok. P, like content of any kind, relies on its followers to constantly consume and I feel like socials are completely overstimulating the serotonin and dopamine levels of everyone from constantly consuming content, lol. Anyway I want to minimize my screen time and stay off the socials because I know it will help with my reboot.

Thanks AP2. 2 weeks feels like a long time right now but I know it'll be 3-4 weeks fast if I hang tight.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Relapsed a few days ago but Im on day 3 no Pmo again. Getting over this 1st week has been a struggle and the urge to view P has been strong in the mornings. Keeping myself busy to push through the times of boredom when I want to view P the most.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Day 4,

Trying to be consistent with writing on here in the mornings. It kind of sets the tone for my day and I usually dont want to Pmo when I post because I feel Im holding myself accountable and dont want to let myself down. I know I cant view any P but there is a desire for it that I have to replace with something else. Posting on here everyday is gonna be that new desire.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Back to day 1 again because I gave in to P and MO yesterday. I felt completely down about PMOing and it literally drained my energy to the point of physical fatigue. Im tired of feeling like that, its depressing at times. I feel like I let myself down and I know that I want to get out of this vicious circle of addiction. Im going to take it day by day and make the necessary time to keep posting on here as much as possible because this forum has been essential for helping me to overcome those days of weakness and temptation.
 

akpal2

Well-Known Member
Hi r2r, are you exercising and meditating? Or generally filling up your time? What is your routine like?

I am also struggling to make really strong streaks. I had sex after 4 weeks, managed it very successfully (Thanks to viagra) but still fell for the chaser effect.
 

Readytoreboot

Active Member
Hey Ap2,

Day 4 and keeping myself busy and distracted from falling back into P viewing. I do like to make time for exercise and meditation everyday or every other day if my schedule is really busy. I believe strengthening the body boosts mental confidence and will power. Mediation for me is essential because its a form of concentration and exercising the mind. I like to visualize myself overcoming my P addiction by me cliff hanging and climbing a high mountain or something. The chaser effect is tough to overcome and I kinda have to trick myself sometimes. The day after I have sex I tell myself that Id rather have the real thing again and Id rather save my O for having real sex again so I can resist from watching P or M and O from a source of artificial stimulation.
 
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