Hi my friend, I can really relate to you. I started with porn when I was young, I went through extreme genres like shemale and now I'm scared of being homosexual... welcome in the club!
I haven't certain answers but let me say to STOP porn and moreover STOP to test yourself! Believe me, if you're going through obsessive thought testing yoursel will let you go worse. As I said in my diary I think that if we go through shemale/gay porn maybe we could have some kind of predisposition/tendency (I don't know what is the best translation, sorry) but it doesn't mean that we are secretly homosexual.
When I asked to my therapist his opinion he answered: "because porn is very easy!". I think that this was just a curiosity that escalated too much.
Write me if you need and remember to forgive yourself!
I haven't certain answers but let me say to STOP porn and moreover STOP to test yourself! Believe me, if you're going through obsessive thought testing yoursel will let you go worse. As I said in my diary I think that if we go through shemale/gay porn maybe we could have some kind of predisposition/tendency (I don't know what is the best translation, sorry) but it doesn't mean that we are secretly homosexual.
When I asked to my therapist his opinion he answered: "because porn is very easy!". I think that this was just a curiosity that escalated too much.
Write me if you need and remember to forgive yourself!