Dedlus Journal

[Dedlus]

hello, im dedlus ,and im a 15yr old male . and this is the start of my journey.
i hope you all support and help me in this journey .
dont be shy if you are just completing 3 days or heck even 1 day you can still give me tips .
and im completely open to get an accountability partner, so f you are need of an AP and feel im fit then well hit me up on email all right
Thank you for reading.

 

[Dedlus]

Hello, Everyone
I hope you are all having an amazing monday.
So this is the first day of my journey ,idk about you all but first days have always been difficult for me ,but I guess the excitment of journaling made be beat this barrier .
Now I know for sure that im not going to relapse till the 8th day minimum and 10th day maximum ,I.E is if I excersise , meditate , make a to do list, and talk to a girl ,
Now the last one might feel a little weird for some people but the thing is men release oestrogen when they are in contact with or communicate with the opposite sex. and i have noticed that helps me so thats the way it is . i may send many messages today as the first day is the hard one.

 

[Dedlus]

Guys there was no way i am going to relapse today ,thats because this always happen,so today was chill ,
but what i noticed is we are always surrounded by porn and related stuff ,there is no way to escape it , look around you we have mobiles , Smart T.V's ,P.C all  these things have 24/7 iternet connection and with internet connection comes P ,even online news sites have atleast 1 triggering ad.
Guys we are on our own here, if you want to quit porn look forward to quit electrical apliances, at least this is what im thinking to do.
I am not going to relapse till Day 7 at least, so i will have to divise something up .
Guys go hard and strong
I hope you are all recovering and not loosing hope .
Guys I am sill in need of an Ap please email me if you want to help and want to be helped
Thank you..

 

[Dedlus]

Hello everyone
I hope you are having an amazing thursday.
Im realy sorry ,im late today is not day-3 but day-4 and im still strong. Nothing intresting happened i didnt get any urges or anything .i talked to my guy friend for an hour and talked to my girl friend(NOT LIGID ,ITS JUST A GIRL WHO IS FRIEND). and it was awesome .Talking to youir close friends and friends from opposite sex atleast once a week really helps me out .i guess it fullfills my nead for intimacy. Everything is going completely fine for me . and im  loving it.

 

[Dedlus]

Hello Everyone
I hope you are all having an amazing Thursday.
My recovory is going amazing and i havent relapsed yet, at least.
Guys good news i got selected i my schools Youtube channel ,im very happy and thats why i am late to write prompt for Day-3 ,and even better news im the first member somewhat of a leader .I'm very very happy.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!**IMPORTANT NEWS ALERT**!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guys tommorow is Friday .
So whats special i see you ask
i have decided to celebrating 3 Fridays a month as HOPE DAY
Ok i will find a better name ok dont laugh.
So the plan is sending hope to everyone who is seeing this journal.
basically everyone has to give hope to everyone any how you can .
A sinple "i hope you recover"
is good enough let us give each other some hope dont stay out on this chance please send at least one message of hope .
SEE YOU SOON.

 

[Dedlus]

Hello Guys
i hope you are all having an amazing Friday.
So i see no one is interested in the hope day . well okay .
regardless. I hope everyone who is seeing this message and everyone who ius trying should recover.
Thank you

anyways guys for some inspiration please go and watch Sallil jamdar asli mard  series
he accurately depicts the story of a porn addict it is in hindi but the subtitles are pretty good.
okay guys i hope you succeed.

 

[Do or die]

all the best brother

 

[Gambitchco]

All teh best for you brother!

 

[Do or die]

Hello brother.
I think you are 19 now. so I suggest you to leave this now.
The measure mistake I did in my life is I not taken My First reboot seriously.
and today I am 22.
I lost my concentration power, memory power, have foggy head whole day , zero confidence.

so please never do it again brother.

I decided from 6 october 2020 that I never go back to porn again.

My english is not good , so please understand what I actually want to say.

 

[Dedlus]

Ok so i got some news i relapsed but now i am back on track and i didnt write in a long time because well a rat cut our wifi line so i was not able to log in and then i forgot my  password but now i am back again .

 

[Dedlus]

Ok so i got some news i relapsed but now i am back on track and i didnt write in a long time because well a rat cut our wifi line so i was not able to log in and then i forgot my  password but now i am back again .

Im sorry to hear that brother i hope you succeed cause im surely going to get out of this.

 

[Dedlus]

Ok everyone im sorry i know im late very late indeed but there is just a lot going on with my life right now i have got youtube, school, reading ,talking to girls and everything so it is being kind of hard to make these journal enteries everyday and ya i didnt relapse i have written day one because i forgot the count and ya from here on im going to make a weakly prompt rather than a daily promt so see you all in a weak.