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shun.csl

Member
- Day 36

I'm changing my relation with social medias like instagram, whatsapp or facebook. Before on facebook I used an alternative profile to be in sexual groups and find men to have sex, now I'm deleting that specific account (there's a waiting time) and I'm using my main profile to follow pages that talk agains P and about healthy sexuality, I'm also in a group with other men who are recovering (rebooting) too.  On instagram I followed soft porn profiles, people doing sexual movements and things like that, now I'm spending few minutes a day,  I stopped following these profiles and I start to follow people fighting agains P and people that shared knowledge about porn addiction or social effects, I'm learning and starting to share what I have learned. I left 10 groups to share pics and videos on whatsapp, I used my main phone number, I already wrote here but I block some "friends" and talked about my situation with the closest and they respect me. I also joined two groups that have men talking about be porn addictorns and share knowledgement and support, I like them. They are my friends.
But still there are two specifical social medias that I can't stay for long: telegram and twitter. I had a P account on twitter and followed a lot of profiles, I have another account but it's different, I spent hours and it's easy to do that, so I delete the app and only access when I need to read a notice or something like that. Telegram was worse, because there I watched videos that I thought never would watch. The sex account I'm waiting to delete/deactivate (30 days). My main account I only use to be in big events groups about congress, lectures and to study.
I have no possibility to be complete apart to them, I'm studying at home because my university is closed, so I'm trying to do the right thing and feel my values. I had relapses but I'm building my walls and I know I'm not alone!

 

shun.csl

Member
I'm back! I was still trying to quit PMO those days but it was not working. I had many relapses and the feelings hurt myself. I found some good friends on my way, they supported me and believed. I think sometimes I never totally agree with quit PMO from my life. It was (maybe it is in some way) my only possibility to feel sexual pleasure, because I don't feel totally safe find a boyfriend and I need to handle my erectile disfunction induced by P. Be still consuming PMO is not harmonic with my values and I'm not talking necessarily about moral but my lifestyle, my toughts, my ideias, my plans to my future, my believes about how I wanna live in a good world. Then, I decided do come here to share my fight with you all and read other topics to build me as a fighter against PMO. It's that what I want.
Today is my day 1!
 

canguro

Active Member
Hey man, welcome back to the forum! Great you're here again to get rid of this addiction once and for all. Stay strong!
Do you have a plan what to do different this time?
 

shun.csl

Member
Today I am back to the fight against porn using this forum to share my experience. I stay away from mora than one year, but I was fighting. I learned a lot about myself, I started theraphy discussing this theme and relations like my sexuality, my sexual performance and my self steeem. After almost three years, I tried to have sex with another boy and it was a challenging experience, I was frustraded, I was insecure and now I know I am knowing myself, my sexual desire without porn. Today is my day 0, I have not 24 hours without porn, but I know I need some support to other members fighting like me. I hope this time I can change my life and win the fight!
 

shun.csl

Member
Today is my first official day.
I waked up early and I work all day, I'm almost on vacation. I need to rest a little bit, go out with friends and relax. I went to the gym and talked to my friends. I'm having a healthy relation with my social medias, I can't leave them because I use them from my job, but I am learning how to use them in a good way. I know I stay anxious with the notifications and the vibracall, but I'm deactivating some and focusing in my actual tasks.
My day was really good. I'm feeling happy!
 
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