Hello everyone!
I am 19 years old I came across porn at the age of 12. At 16 I used to watch it everyday and this was the time I started masturbating. I was eager to know how to actually fap but now I really do regret it. I just lost my better self. It changed me completely.
The reason for me to watch porn was depression. I've been depressed since past 6-7 years. I get suicidal thoughts very often! I used to abstain myself from pmo since past 2 years(Longest streak was of 25 days).
While in between those years I happened to found my first love back! She was the reason I was depressd. Also she was the reason I stayed away from pmo for 6months. I guess love heals everything. But the sad part is we broke up and I was back to my regular routine within a month!
Just a few months ago I happened to come across Yourbrainonporn.com and I reached my longest streak after breakup (70 odd days). Again I relapsed and trying to get back on track since past 2 months but I am not able to.
I feel like I don't have any strong reason to start reboot! I try to convince myself but all the efforts are seem to be useless!
Can anybody give me any advice?
Lost all hopes
I am 19 years old I came across porn at the age of 12. At 16 I used to watch it everyday and this was the time I started masturbating. I was eager to know how to actually fap but now I really do regret it. I just lost my better self. It changed me completely.
The reason for me to watch porn was depression. I've been depressed since past 6-7 years. I get suicidal thoughts very often! I used to abstain myself from pmo since past 2 years(Longest streak was of 25 days).
While in between those years I happened to found my first love back! She was the reason I was depressd. Also she was the reason I stayed away from pmo for 6months. I guess love heals everything. But the sad part is we broke up and I was back to my regular routine within a month!
Just a few months ago I happened to come across Yourbrainonporn.com and I reached my longest streak after breakup (70 odd days). Again I relapsed and trying to get back on track since past 2 months but I am not able to.
I feel like I don't have any strong reason to start reboot! I try to convince myself but all the efforts are seem to be useless!
Can anybody give me any advice?
Lost all hopes