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Glad to hear of your progress. Being able to work in a field you truly enjoy is a blessing-hope it comes through for you. Keep going!
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mrhodes51879
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Thank you Jixu,
Thank you for replying. I am not 100% sure that I will be going through with the career change. I want to succeed in what I am currently in, shipping coordinator, yet I want to work with children with special needs. Decision making is not one of my strengths. I have concerns if I stay in what I am in now and I have concerns if I move from this into working with children with special needs. I wish God would tell me where he desires me to be but I know it doesn't usually work that way. Please keep me in your prayers and thank you.
Been doing good on the p&m front. I celebrated one month without it on Monday. Feels good to not give in to it.
Blessings,
Mark
Thank you for replying. I am not 100% sure that I will be going through with the career change. I want to succeed in what I am currently in, shipping coordinator, yet I want to work with children with special needs. Decision making is not one of my strengths. I have concerns if I stay in what I am in now and I have concerns if I move from this into working with children with special needs. I wish God would tell me where he desires me to be but I know it doesn't usually work that way. Please keep me in your prayers and thank you.
Been doing good on the p&m front. I celebrated one month without it on Monday. Feels good to not give in to it.
Blessings,
Mark
J
J01
Guest
That makes sense what you said about your current employ-it is also a good idea in this day and age to have more than one skill set and positive employment experience to draw upon. Great work on the clean month!
Good going, Mark, on 1 month!
As for the will of God, for you and I especially, Romans 12:1-2 really applies. As we present our bodies to the Lord as a living sacrifice, as holy, as accpetable, we will learn the will of God in a given situation.
This, again, is under His mercies. This means that, even if we fail, we are to present ourselves in this way to Him as our reasonable service.
In the context of being presented to Him, His will shall unfold and be known.
Blessings.
As for the will of God, for you and I especially, Romans 12:1-2 really applies. As we present our bodies to the Lord as a living sacrifice, as holy, as accpetable, we will learn the will of God in a given situation.
This, again, is under His mercies. This means that, even if we fail, we are to present ourselves in this way to Him as our reasonable service.
In the context of being presented to Him, His will shall unfold and be known.
Blessings.
mrhodes51879
Member
44 days. I have not given into P&M for 44 days, including today.
I am still having thoughts of looking at P but it is getting more and more unnecessary to look at it. I also am having less of a desire to M. I would like to say that I am getting better but I don't want to get ahead of myself. Just when I get comfy I know that's when temptation will rear its head and I will go into the funnel of no return. I am trying to be vigilant and ever mindful of the situation, giving my burdens to God each and every day.
On the job front, I am still trying to get ahold of someone at GHR (General Healthcare Resources) to get more information about a specific position working with children of special needs. I was once a paraprofessional in the West Chester Area School District and I made the mistake of thinking I couldn't be a skilled Para. I hope this works out. I am more nervous about the reaction I will receive from my current employer. I am going to attempt contact with GHR again tomorrow.
As in all things, please pray for me and I will keep you all in my prayers. Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year to each and every one of you.
Mark
I am still having thoughts of looking at P but it is getting more and more unnecessary to look at it. I also am having less of a desire to M. I would like to say that I am getting better but I don't want to get ahead of myself. Just when I get comfy I know that's when temptation will rear its head and I will go into the funnel of no return. I am trying to be vigilant and ever mindful of the situation, giving my burdens to God each and every day.
On the job front, I am still trying to get ahold of someone at GHR (General Healthcare Resources) to get more information about a specific position working with children of special needs. I was once a paraprofessional in the West Chester Area School District and I made the mistake of thinking I couldn't be a skilled Para. I hope this works out. I am more nervous about the reaction I will receive from my current employer. I am going to attempt contact with GHR again tomorrow.
As in all things, please pray for me and I will keep you all in my prayers. Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year to each and every one of you.
Mark
mrhodes51879
Member
53 days.
I feel blessed that I have not given in to P&M in that long!
Days have been blending together but one thing remains strong in my life and that is God. I don't pray every day, to be honest, but I can say that I do pray and when I do it is not just about other people and their needs. I pray for well being, things I hope for, and not to forget that I am addicted to P&M. Because, in this time span, I have been forgetting how strong the urges were. I also have forgotten how hard it was in a day to not look at it and give into M.
I am very thankful to not just God, but all of you who have prayed for me. I have also kept you in my prayers. And the job thing with GHR is moving in the right direction. I put my two weeks notice at my current employer. January 18th is my last day. I am looking forward, while nervous, to get into the Para-Professional field again. I am nervous because I gave up on it back in 2019. It has been almost 2 years since I stepped into a role like this. I don't want to feel defeated as I did before. But I have to remind myself that God didn't take me this far and put up a roadblock. There have been no roadblocks.
Hope you all are doing well. Blessings and peace to each and every one of you,
Mark
I feel blessed that I have not given in to P&M in that long!
Days have been blending together but one thing remains strong in my life and that is God. I don't pray every day, to be honest, but I can say that I do pray and when I do it is not just about other people and their needs. I pray for well being, things I hope for, and not to forget that I am addicted to P&M. Because, in this time span, I have been forgetting how strong the urges were. I also have forgotten how hard it was in a day to not look at it and give into M.
I am very thankful to not just God, but all of you who have prayed for me. I have also kept you in my prayers. And the job thing with GHR is moving in the right direction. I put my two weeks notice at my current employer. January 18th is my last day. I am looking forward, while nervous, to get into the Para-Professional field again. I am nervous because I gave up on it back in 2019. It has been almost 2 years since I stepped into a role like this. I don't want to feel defeated as I did before. But I have to remind myself that God didn't take me this far and put up a roadblock. There have been no roadblocks.
Hope you all are doing well. Blessings and peace to each and every one of you,
Mark
Good going on 53 and more days, Mark!
Yes, prayer is indispensable as we walk out this victory.
Yes, prayer is indispensable as we walk out this victory.
mrhodes51879
Member
79 days without P&M.
There were a couple of days that it was very difficult to not look at porn. I, however, resisted giving in to it and it felt good not giving into it.
I am getting to a point where I desire my wife again. However, we have not connected sexually at all. I think there are things that are causing us to be distant and I think my mental health is one of them.
I am going to be starting, hopefully, getting some support in the mental health area. There is a therapy called TMS. Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation therapy. It is like going for an MRI except with no tunnel and the device is connected to your head. I won't go into detail on the therapy except to say I really think this is what I need to get over the "hump" mentally and am really looking forward to it.
Peace be with all of you and God's mercies and blessings to you as well,
Mark
There were a couple of days that it was very difficult to not look at porn. I, however, resisted giving in to it and it felt good not giving into it.
I am getting to a point where I desire my wife again. However, we have not connected sexually at all. I think there are things that are causing us to be distant and I think my mental health is one of them.
I am going to be starting, hopefully, getting some support in the mental health area. There is a therapy called TMS. Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation therapy. It is like going for an MRI except with no tunnel and the device is connected to your head. I won't go into detail on the therapy except to say I really think this is what I need to get over the "hump" mentally and am really looking forward to it.
Peace be with all of you and God's mercies and blessings to you as well,
Mark
LetItGoAlready
Active Member
Mark - Congrats on 79 days! I applaud you for seeking support for your mental health. I would even say it's vital to recovery. Best wishes, friend.
mrhodes51879
Member
Happy Valentine's day everyone,
I just wanted to drop a line and say that today is 91 days that P&M has not been in my life. I am eternally grateful for this to God and Jesus Christ.
I am still struggling with mental health issues. Insurance has been my biggest hurdle as no where takes medicaid for TMS therapy.
I started my new job working at the middle school level and it is rewarding working with a special needs student. The communication, however, is lacking and has been a source of irritation. I have to keep giving it to God. He is the source of all good things and who I have to give the good as well as the bad to.
Thank you for reading and listening,
Blessings,
Mark
I just wanted to drop a line and say that today is 91 days that P&M has not been in my life. I am eternally grateful for this to God and Jesus Christ.
I am still struggling with mental health issues. Insurance has been my biggest hurdle as no where takes medicaid for TMS therapy.
I started my new job working at the middle school level and it is rewarding working with a special needs student. The communication, however, is lacking and has been a source of irritation. I have to keep giving it to God. He is the source of all good things and who I have to give the good as well as the bad to.
Thank you for reading and listening,
Blessings,
Mark
LetItGoAlready
Active Member
That's great news, Mark. I was hoping you'd make another appearance soon and update everyone on how you're doing. This certainly seems to confirm that you're doing well on the recovery front.
You have my sympathies on this front. I've been struggling with some of those issues myself. I sincerely hope you can find a way forward despite the insurance hurdles. Insurance can be such a pain!
And congrats on getting the new job. Every new job comes with an adjustment period. It takes time to settle in to a comfortable groove and setbacks can always be expected, which is why it's especially important for you to be patient with the process and take special care of yourself during this time.
Best wishes to you, friend.
Congrats on 91 days, Mark! And for giving glory where glory is due!
I'm sorry for your other struggles, and pray for insurance issues to be cleared up, so you can continue your therapy.
God is near the broken hearted, and He will make a way where there is no way, and is with you in the sorrows and in the joys.
At least P/MO is not an issue adding onto anything else.
Blessings.
I'm sorry for your other struggles, and pray for insurance issues to be cleared up, so you can continue your therapy.
God is near the broken hearted, and He will make a way where there is no way, and is with you in the sorrows and in the joys.
At least P/MO is not an issue adding onto anything else.
Blessings.