Good morning, All.
Coming on, occasionally only as the need- or wish- arises.
I'm doing well. I'm not currently obsessing. My overall arch is upward toward progress, healing and leaving these behaviors behind.
I still follow my schedule toward social media being 1x a week, except I'm posting to my various platforms for either business or ministry. I still have to be careful, mindful as to content- even on my 'free-day'. I do find myself allowing for exceptions (to coming on), but I also remind myself how I need to be somewhat strict in this area, as to fall back into old social media or phone habits is unacceptable.
Emotionally, I'm doing well. If at all I find myself in a downward slide, upset, angry, sad or depressed, if it no longer makes sense to carry the feelings on (because even our negative feelings have a purpose), then I'll change my physiology, my focus, and my self-talk > whatever will alter my state.
My approach for years now has been kind of inbetween two schools of thought concerning habit change or overcoming an addiction:
1. The will-power, grit your teeth, white-knuckled all-or-nothing approach; and
2. The non-will power, mindfulness, and a radical acceptance (coupled with a radical grace) approach.
Sometimes the differences are subtle, and sometimes the one approach can help the other- or at least appear to. The first approach gives you the illusion that you're in control, whereas the other one is deeper and more subtle, and it relies not so much on behavior ultimately as it does on layers of insight, understanding and knowing.
As such my approach now looks like this:
1. I no longer count days.
2. I no longer set goals.
3. I no longer track lapses (summer 2023). There is therefore no 'Day 0'.
4. In the event of a lapse, I learn as much as I can from the experience, and go on, infusing it with as little meaning as possible. Admittedly, this sounds contradictory. It has meaning as a behavior or occurrence, but as to who I am, or what it means for my identity, it means nothing.
6. There is no day 0 in lieu of a lapse, and hence, no resetting (the ammendment to no. 3 makes this statement more true).
7. I still dismiss urges, and this includes thoughts that lead up to it as being from the lower brain.
8. Overall, I don't think about it, and this is why to minimize interacting on RN: to no longer identify with the unwanted behaviors.
9. At the same time, I do appreciate being able to utilize a forum where anonymity is a safe place to work out our thoughts as we become new people.
Coming on, occasionally only as the need- or wish- arises.
I'm doing well. I'm not currently obsessing. My overall arch is upward toward progress, healing and leaving these behaviors behind.
I still follow my schedule toward social media being 1x a week, except I'm posting to my various platforms for either business or ministry. I still have to be careful, mindful as to content- even on my 'free-day'. I do find myself allowing for exceptions (to coming on), but I also remind myself how I need to be somewhat strict in this area, as to fall back into old social media or phone habits is unacceptable.
Emotionally, I'm doing well. If at all I find myself in a downward slide, upset, angry, sad or depressed, if it no longer makes sense to carry the feelings on (because even our negative feelings have a purpose), then I'll change my physiology, my focus, and my self-talk > whatever will alter my state.
My approach for years now has been kind of inbetween two schools of thought concerning habit change or overcoming an addiction:
1. The will-power, grit your teeth, white-knuckled all-or-nothing approach; and
2. The non-will power, mindfulness, and a radical acceptance (coupled with a radical grace) approach.
Sometimes the differences are subtle, and sometimes the one approach can help the other- or at least appear to. The first approach gives you the illusion that you're in control, whereas the other one is deeper and more subtle, and it relies not so much on behavior ultimately as it does on layers of insight, understanding and knowing.
As such my approach now looks like this:
1. I no longer count days.
2. I no longer set goals.
3. I no longer track lapses (summer 2023). There is therefore no 'Day 0'.
4. In the event of a lapse, I learn as much as I can from the experience, and go on, infusing it with as little meaning as possible. Admittedly, this sounds contradictory. It has meaning as a behavior or occurrence, but as to who I am, or what it means for my identity, it means nothing.
6. There is no day 0 in lieu of a lapse, and hence, no resetting (the ammendment to no. 3 makes this statement more true).
7. I still dismiss urges, and this includes thoughts that lead up to it as being from the lower brain.
8. Overall, I don't think about it, and this is why to minimize interacting on RN: to no longer identify with the unwanted behaviors.
9. At the same time, I do appreciate being able to utilize a forum where anonymity is a safe place to work out our thoughts as we become new people.
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