Need Help Making Progress

[Qdude]

I just recently turned 24 and started P in my early teen years and have pretty much been addicted ever since without really realizing it until a couple years ago. I have had PIED for a few years now and was foolish in thinking I was the only person with this problem which led to depression and not living a fulfilling life. I have finally realized that rebooting is the only way I will be able to live a fulfilling and happy life.

I have not watched P since July 28th. I don't have a problem with not watching P right now but I have continued to O through the prone position, usually in the morning. I have been M'ing in the prone position since I was young and this is why I still haven't entered the flatline. When I wake up I almost always edge until it's time to get out of bed which leads to me O'ing eventually. My longest streak has been 5 days twice but have O'd in the prone position both times to ruin my streak since both times I got morning wood which I NEVER get anymore.

I want to be happy, feel alive again and be able to have sex but cannot seem to stop MO'ing in the prone position. I know if I can take control of the prone position problem I will be able to restrain from P and be able to have a successful reboot and success story. I'm really afraid of the initial 2-3 month flatline but I know I must suffer in order to get better. Any tips or help would be greatly appreciated.

 

[Qdude]

Just wanted to give an update and ask for some advice. I have made a lot of progress over the past two years but I'm pretty sure I still have PIED because I still M in the prone position when I first wake up in the morning but only have this problem on the weekends now. I have looked at nude pictures and videos occasionally over the past two years but haven't watched actual P. Although I do know that this is probably just as bad on my brain as watching actual P. I have had 3 over 90 day streaks without O'ing and my most recent longest streak was 150 days or so. My problem is the longest streak that I have had without M'ing and edging is always 2 weeks which is why I never enter a flatline. At the end of this past 150 day streak, I felt like I wasn't interested in ANYTHING which I have seen other people have this issue as well which is how I knew I was on the right path but I messed it up by MO'ing for 3 straight weeks on the weekends. I'm currently at a 14 day streak and know that the only way I'm going to get better is by completely restraining from M'ing and I haven't for 7 days so far.

I have been talking to a girl this past month because I've seen others say that the quickest way to reboot and rewire is by actually having human contact which I have been longing for. I've never hung out with any girls the past couple of years because I've been afraid that they are going to find out about my PIED. I asked if she wanted to be cuddle buddies a week ago with the intent of speeding up my reboot process and then hopefully once I have recovered enough, be able to have a healthy sex life with her. She said yes to being cuddle buddies but that same night and every day since she has started sending me pictures of herself in her bra and underwear and in VERY sexual positions. I don't want to have any sexual contact with her other than cuddling right now because I'm fairly certain I wouldn't be able to get hard yet. I also know that she talks to other guys but wants me the most which makes me feel SO worthless knowing that I can't even do anything about it. I also get very anxious when we are talking because my PIED issue is always in the back of my head. This leads me to never getting any good sleep during the week because I wake up 1-2 hours before I'm supposed to and can never fall back asleep. This leaves me SUPER tired every single day during the week.

I'm going to hang out with this girl in a few days for the first time and wanted to see if anybody can give me any advice on if I should tell her about my issue or if I should tell her I only want to be cuddle buddies for now and keep my issue to myself. If I tell her about my issue, I'm sure she will start seeing other guys because they would obviously be able to have sex with her. This would also make me SUPER jealous since I know I should be the one having sex with her. If I tell her I only want to be cuddle buddies for now, I feel like she would be pretty upset since I know she wants to have sex with me. I also feel like she would start seeing other guys and not want to hang out with me anymore since I only want to be cuddle buddies for now. Also knowing that she is talking to other guys while we are cuddle buddies would make me very insecure because I don't want her to have sex with anyone else but probably can't fault her for it. I don't want to lose this opportunity to have a cuddle buddy because I know this would REALLY help with me rewire and speed up my healing process. Any advice you guys have on how to handle this situation would be awesome, thanks for reading!

 

[Qdude]

I posted this on a different thread but wanted to post here if anyone could give me some advice on how to handle this situation.

I’m about to turn 26 next month and my story of being young and thinking porn was harmless then getting PIED is similar. I’ve had PIED since I was probably 18 and I’ve gone 798 days since I’ve watched actual porn although I have occasionally MO’d to nude pictures which I know is just as bad. I have had three over 90 day streaks with the longest ending a month ago at about 150 days. But the longest I’ve gone without fantasying or M’ing and edging has only been two weeks.

I’ve been talking to a girl this past month and asked if she would like to be cuddle buddies so I can begin rewiring since I haven’t had any physical contact with a girl for a while. She said yes but ever since she has sent me cute pictures and a couple of nudes over snapchat because she wants to have sex with me. I’m hanging out with her in a few days and wanted to ask your opinion on if I should tell her about my PIED or tell her I only want to be cuddle buddies for now. I would rather be honest with her instead of trying to hide my problems from her. I’m not trying to have her be my girlfriend, only cuddle buddies for right now. I’m not super attached to her so I would be ok if she did not want to talk to me anymore although I would be disappointed. I have no idea when I would be able to have sex again although I have to be somewhat close especially if I begin rewiring with this girl. Any advice that you can give me on how to handle this situation would be great and I would really appreciate it.

 

[Scorpio1990]

I posted this on a different thread but wanted to post here if anyone could give me some advice on how to handle this situation.

I’m about to turn 26 next month and my story of being young and thinking porn was harmless then getting PIED is similar. I’ve had PIED since I was probably 18 and I’ve gone 798 days since I’ve watched actual porn although I have occasionally MO’d to nude pictures which I know is just as bad. I have had three over 90 day streaks with the longest ending a month ago at about 150 days. But the longest I’ve gone without fantasying or M’ing and edging has only been two weeks.

I’ve been talking to a girl this past month and asked if she would like to be cuddle buddies so I can being rewiring since I haven’t had any physical contact with a girl for a while. She said yes but ever since she has sent me cute pictures and a couple of nudes over snapchat because she wants to have sex with me. I’m hanging out with her in a few days and wanted to ask your opinion on if I should tell her about my PIED or tell her I only want to be cuddle buddies for now. I would rather be honest with her instead of trying to hide my problems from her. I’m not trying to have her be my girlfriend, only cuddle buddies for right now. I’m not super attached to her so I would be ok if she did not want to talk to me anymore although I would be disappointed. I have no idea when I would be able to have sex again although I have to be somewhat close especially if I begin rewiring with this girl. Any advice that you can give me on how to handle this situation would be great and I would really appreciate it.

I hope you can find your answer and recover soon so I can get some inspiration.

 

[Qdude]

I hope you can find your answer and recover soon so I can get some inspiration.

Thank you! I know if I'm able to cuddle and rewire with this girl and keep away from M'ing altogether I'll be able to recover and have sex in a few months. This is hard on all of us but always keep going and putting one foot in front of the other, much love.