Road to happiness i suppose

Thanks for the support bro!

Anyways its been 6 months since she left me and i still can't stop thinking about her.

It's wired, at the beginning i was so indifferent toward it, i just had fun with her, i was really into another girl. But as the time passed i have started to actually feel huge comfort around her, i got erections just from kissing, but i was still afraid to have sex.

So i avoided our dates every now and then for a few days, making her think that i dont care. Honestly i pushed her back into his arms.I was the one acting weird, maybe i should of tell her everything at the start...

So that last weekend in December when we had that bad sex ( i was struggling to maintain an erection during foreplay, she was going for BJ and i stopped her, told her i wasn't ready, and in the next moment i just decided to penetrate, and it was very pleasant, i actually felt it, but i came after 3-4 strokes, inside her...she was pissed when she noticed that.this was probably due to a 29 day monk mode and performance anxiety combined with ED...anyhow second time i was to stressed to try again.In the morning i got it up easily but came in 10 seconds...) was our last time together, she picked her long time boyfriend over me.

So guys its fucking painful to see that someone who looked you with sparkle in her eyes, now look kind of down on you, and you are so in love...

Anyhow she teased me a few times on instagram, sent some meaningless messages, but i know she is back with him, although she's hiding that.

Every day i wonder how future would be bright if my brain wasn't hooked on fucking porn.

I know i must forget about her, but this sounds so fucking unfair, life doesn't have to be so cruel.

This motivated me to fight so im way passed 90 days. Also i haven't watched porn for 7 months.

Im afraid that performance anxiety could be the issue in my rewire process, once i get together with someone sexually atractive...

Good i want to try with her again, i need a second chance...

I will be cured se day and i will be ready to help rising awareness in my country on this problem.
 
Anyhow today i met a girl which is super sexy, honestly i don't see her as my girlfriend, but i wouldn't mind having sex with her...

Ive got an erection just by talking to her, will stay in touch, see what happens, i believe i'm ready to try again, think my sensitivity is back, and know i have blueballs...
 
Ok guys,

Next week of my life will be extremely important for me, professionally so im bit stressed, however life after her just doesn't feel the same...

Im close to 100 days now...Ill take the pornstar girl i met out next weekend and ill try to see what happens...

God, porn can do so much damage, it closes you from the world so you don't seek love/sex, its fucked up...
 
Ok guys aroun of 5 months of no PMO for me. Also aroun 8 months since no porn.

As you my know the girl i was crazy in love with left me after finding out of my sexual issues. She is now with her ex again for 6 months.

Ever since, my heart is broken, also i haven't managed to find another sex partner due to lot of reasons...

Im very anxious of my future, but i will continue my jurney.

Please people stop PMOing, it could ruin your whole life.

I hope i will get out of this mess...
 
Hello people, help!!!

Im now 5 months into my reboot, 5 months of hard mode, with here and there few light and short fantazies...

Anyhow today i woke up hard, and i was miserable, considering that my hearth is broken due to this problem, and i got back to bad with some light fantasies...

I was dreaming about an exam on my university, and in the dream i was at the library learning, however i saw an instagram story of my ex, and it was very hot, so i continued watching, and than i came into my pants, this made me woke up, and i have really came into my pants, after 5 months of hard mode...

Question: does this counts as a relapse!!!?

Is this a good or bad thing?!
 
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Hello Guys,

It is time for my success story.

First of all, i'm not going to go back to past because it was hard (or soft haha), very sad and vary traumatic for me, and going back still makes me fucked up mentaly, if you wanna know all the pain i felt, please scroll down my topic.

Anyhow I had erectile dysfunction for quite some time and it made me lose the love of my life (as i thought at the moment). This was definitely caused by my abuse of pornographic content. My dick was soft, I would lose erection at key points and eventually I would come fast with my dick half soft.

I was going through the ful monk mode a few times (30, 180+ days, 3 months)...
Morning eretion came in around 90 days of (180+ day).

However, in my experience attachment to pornographic arose left me after 3-4 weeks with no porn and no mansturbation. Basically i could get hard a little bit just by kissing, after 3-4 weeks with no porn and m, which leaves me to my main conclusion:
GIVING UP PORN IS MUST-HAVE, BUT IN ORDER TO COME BACK FULLY YOU MUST GIVE YOUR BODY THE REAL AROUSAL (hugging, holding hands, kissing softly), eventually everything shall be fine.

During my recovery I hired a shrink specialized in sexology and I also had a few urological examinations. Main two conclusions i gained there were:
1) sex is natural urge - but same as everything in life it is knowladge acquired by experiance! This means you can learn sex same as walking, same as talking, riding becyucle, this is a techinqe that you learn by yoursel with no advices needed;
2) i got to talk with urologist which was a dude type of a guy and he told me to try with cialis. Basically, he told me i'm completely healthy but i'm too nervous and that i have performance anxiety - which was truth. Guys, besides of the fucked up arousal system, we also have performance anxiety, which causes your dick
to go down.

Anyhow, in November 2021, i met a girl, basically she found my number, since she liked me, and we had a night out. We kissed, but I was very anxious so I decided not to call her again. Luckily, she was too brave to let me go, so saturday night as i was sleeping in my bed she rang on my door. I was so scared so i took a Cialis pill. I let her in. after some time (around half an hour) i was so fucking hard just from the kiss, and we ended up having a tremedous sex for whole night. Now we are in relationship for more then 7 months, she is very hot.

After some time, 3-4 months, i was able to have sex couple of times in a row, without a Cialis pill. So basically, i don't need no cialis for having a sex, i buy it sometimes just for fun. I guess I'm back in full now. Sometimes I still get soft, but this is perfectly normal for a human being.

Anyhow, this experience changed me, there is a light at the end of a tunnel. Please just be patient. Crutial advices:

- Do not panic. Everything shall be fine, just stop watching porn and jerking off for some time (2-3 months);
- Find a girl, kiss her, touch her;
-Use a pill before first sex;
-Hire a shrink;
-Talk to your urologist.

Today I'm in a happy relationship, anyhow my emotions toward the girl who left me almost two years ago didn't stop in full, guess i'm still paying the price, but it's getting better each day. I love my girl, she is young, pretty, hot looking and loving. Im trying to be as happy as I could be, look, nothing is perfect for anybody, I don't think...

Guys think less, listen to your body.
 

anubu0

Active Member
Good stuff Tommy! When I first discovered my PIED I went to a urologist and he also recommended I take some Viagra for performance anxiety. I wholeheartedly agree with you that anxiety is a part of our inability to perform. Therefore, the problem is two-fold; there is an issue with our brains and our dependence on porn and there's an issue with how we percieve ourselves and our abilities, which was created by our years of porn use and crushing sexual experiences. You're outline for recovery is really smart! When I get to a decent point in my recovery I will definitely try to kick start my sexual life with some Viagra and then taper it off so that I don't become dependent.
 
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Hello Guys,

It is time for my success story.

First of all, i'm not going to go back to past because it was hard (or soft haha), very sad and vary traumatic for me, and going back still makes me fucked up mentaly, if you wanna know all the pain i felt, please scroll down my topic.

Anyhow I had erectile dysfunction for quite some time and it made me lose the love of my life (as i thought at the moment). This was definitely caused by my abuse of pornographic content. My dick was soft, I would lose erection at key points and eventually I would come fast with my dick half soft.

I was going through the ful monk mode a few times (30, 180+ days, 3 months)...
Morning eretion came in around 90 days of (180+ day).

However, in my experience attachment to pornographic arose left me after 3-4 weeks with no porn and no mansturbation. Basically i could get hard a little bit just by kissing, after 3-4 weeks with no porn and m, which leaves me to my main conclusion:
GIVING UP PORN IS MUST-HAVE, BUT IN ORDER TO COME BACK FULLY YOU MUST GIVE YOUR BODY THE REAL AROUSAL (hugging, holding hands, kissing softly), eventually everything shall be fine.

During my recovery I hired a shrink specialized in sexology and I also had a few urological examinations. Main two conclusions i gained there were:
1) sex is natural urge - but same as everything in life it is knowladge acquired by experiance! This means you can learn sex same as walking, same as talking, riding becyucle, this is a techinqe that you learn by yoursel with no advices needed;
2) i got to talk with urologist which was a dude type of a guy and he told me to try with cialis. Basically, he told me i'm completely healthy but i'm too nervous and that i have performance anxiety - which was truth. Guys, besides of the fucked up arousal system, we also have performance anxiety, which causes your dick
to go down.

Anyhow, in November 2021, i met a girl, basically she found my number, since she liked me, and we had a night out. We kissed, but I was very anxious so I decided not to call her again. Luckily, she was too brave to let me go, so saturday night as i was sleeping in my bed she rang on my door. I was so scared so i took a Cialis pill. I let her in. after some time (around half an hour) i was so fucking hard just from the kiss, and we ended up having a tremedous sex for whole night. Now we are in relationship for more then 7 months, she is very hot.

After some time, 3-4 months, i was able to have sex couple of times in a row, without a Cialis pill. So basically, i don't need no cialis for having a sex, i buy it sometimes just for fun. I guess I'm back in full now. Sometimes I still get soft, but this is perfectly normal for a human being.

Anyhow, this experience changed me, there is a light at the end of a tunnel. Please just be patient. Crutial advices:

- Do not panic. Everything shall be fine, just stop watching porn and jerking off for some time (2-3 months);
- Find a girl, kiss her, touch her;
-Use a pill before first sex;
-Hire a shrink;
-Talk to your urologist.

Today I'm in a happy relationship, anyhow my emotions toward the girl who left me almost two years ago didn't stop in full, guess i'm still paying the price, but it's getting better each day. I love my girl, she is young, pretty, hot looking and loving. Im trying to be as happy as I could be, look, nothing is perfect for anybody, I don't think...

Guys think less, listen to your body.
Love it man, great success story!
 

Believer

Member
Guys, just like tommyvercetti I am at a very low point where I don't know if I'd ever heal. This thought just keeps plaguing my mind every moment. I humbly request you all to support me on my journey, please. Thanks
 
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Hello Guys,

It is time for my success story.

First of all, i'm not going to go back to past because it was hard (or soft haha), very sad and vary traumatic for me, and going back still makes me fucked up mentaly, if you wanna know all the pain i felt, please scroll down my topic.

Anyhow I had erectile dysfunction for quite some time and it made me lose the love of my life (as i thought at the moment). This was definitely caused by my abuse of pornographic content. My dick was soft, I would lose erection at key points and eventually I would come fast with my dick half soft.

I was going through the ful monk mode a few times (30, 180+ days, 3 months)...
Morning eretion came in around 90 days of (180+ day).

However, in my experience attachment to pornographic arose left me after 3-4 weeks with no porn and no mansturbation. Basically i could get hard a little bit just by kissing, after 3-4 weeks with no porn and m, which leaves me to my main conclusion:
GIVING UP PORN IS MUST-HAVE, BUT IN ORDER TO COME BACK FULLY YOU MUST GIVE YOUR BODY THE REAL AROUSAL (hugging, holding hands, kissing softly), eventually everything shall be fine.

During my recovery I hired a shrink specialized in sexology and I also had a few urological examinations. Main two conclusions i gained there were:
1) sex is natural urge - but same as everything in life it is knowladge acquired by experiance! This means you can learn sex same as walking, same as talking, riding becyucle, this is a techinqe that you learn by yoursel with no advices needed;
2) i got to talk with urologist which was a dude type of a guy and he told me to try with cialis. Basically, he told me i'm completely healthy but i'm too nervous and that i have performance anxiety - which was truth. Guys, besides of the fucked up arousal system, we also have performance anxiety, which causes your dick
to go down.

Anyhow, in November 2021, i met a girl, basically she found my number, since she liked me, and we had a night out. We kissed, but I was very anxious so I decided not to call her again. Luckily, she was too brave to let me go, so saturday night as i was sleeping in my bed she rang on my door. I was so scared so i took a Cialis pill. I let her in. after some time (around half an hour) i was so fucking hard just from the kiss, and we ended up having a tremedous sex for whole night. Now we are in relationship for more then 7 months, she is very hot.

After some time, 3-4 months, i was able to have sex couple of times in a row, without a Cialis pill. So basically, i don't need no cialis for having a sex, i buy it sometimes just for fun. I guess I'm back in full now. Sometimes I still get soft, but this is perfectly normal for a human being.

Anyhow, this experience changed me, there is a light at the end of a tunnel. Please just be patient. Crutial advices:

- Do not panic. Everything shall be fine, just stop watching porn and jerking off for some time (2-3 months);
- Find a girl, kiss her, touch her;
-Use a pill before first sex;
-Hire a shrink;
-Talk to your urologist.

Today I'm in a happy relationship, anyhow my emotions toward the girl who left me almost two years ago didn't stop in full, guess i'm still paying the price, but it's getting better each day. I love my girl, she is young, pretty, hot looking and loving. Im trying to be as happy as I could be, look, nothing is perfect for anybody, I don't think...

Guys think less, listen to your body.
I like your strategy and I even just went to a urologist and am in therapy.
 
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