I?m posting this in a few places because I?m a pretty extreme example of someone who may have PIED, but I?ve always been concerned about venous leak. I?ll include my story below, but is venous leak a complete inability to get an erection? Or is it more of a consistency issue? And if you care to read my story below, please tell me if this sounds more like PIED or something else like venous leak or hard flaccid/pelvic floor issues. These conditions seem to have similar symptoms to mine, such as: no morning wood, poor and inconsistent erection quality, sometimes cold/shriveled penis and cold glans.
I?m in my early 30s , very inexperienced, and began using porn probably around 13, maybe even younger. I began noticing weaker erections as early as high school (maybe only 3 or 4 o clock at times and morning wood began to decline). I?ve always been a very anxious person so once I noticed and began worrying about this the problem became worse. In my early 20s I went to the doctor and had blood work done, which checked out fine. I was then sent to a urologist who only did a physical examination and said everything looked good. He gave me some off brand ED meds and since I was single at the time, he said go home and masturbate and come back if they don?t work. (Which I did, using porn since I was still clueless about PIED). They worked okay and I carried on with my bad PMO habits, despite having pretty weak erections at times and a lack of morning wood (almost never now and pretty weak). I obviously had insecurities about this which caused me to avoid relationships most of my 20s. At the same time I was almost in a state of denial and told myself things would work when they needed to.
This past summer I finally began looking for answers again and discovered the nofap and PIED communities, which gave me hope but also amped up my anxiety quite a bit with the realization I may have been doing this to myself. I made it about 40 days before relapsing due to some depressing life events. After relapsing, I did notice two days where I had weak morning wood and felt optimistic that nofap had been working, but got discouraged when it didn?t continue. I have since learned that progress isn?t always linear. I can also say that while my erection was pretty weak when I relapsed, I noticed some improvement when I relapsed a few more times in the following weeks, although this wasn?t consistent either. There were even a few select times where I felt like my erection was stronger than I had seen it in years.
I was also finally dating someone who I was VERY in to and my biggest fear was losing her due to not being able to perform. Being inexperienced obviously made this problem worse and created some bad performance anxiety. When the time finally came that we ended up in bed together, I was almost in a panic about not being able to perform, which shut everything down regardless of what my condition is. Luckily she was pretty drunk and I was able to use that as an excuse. We ended up breaking up shortly after though and I?ve really been beating myself up about that missed opportunity and how she may have felt about my putting off sex. I should add that while my dick was completely dead in this situation, I did have times where I got to about 40% when kissing or touching.
I?ve been pretty down since losing her and I?ve finally gotten myself back on track with nofap. I?m currently on 27 days and I?m being much more strict on myself this time (no peaking, looking at sexy pictures on Instagram, and avoiding any fantasizing as best I can). I have even had a few weak morning woods, which I suppose is some progress for what I?m used to. However I?m constantly second guessing and worrying that I may not have PIED and may have something else. It?s hard for me to tell if I?ve gone into the ?flatline? since my erection quality has sucked for so long. I will also find myself getting a weak erection here and there if I drift off thinking about a previous experience or something, which may suggest I?m not in the flatline since most guys in flatline seem to report to life at all.
Venous leak seems to be what a ton of guys look into when assuming the worst, and although I went to a urologist when I was younger I never received the ultrasound shot test everyone talks about. I?ve also looked into hard flaccid and feel I do have some of those symptoms at times, so I started stretching and exercising that area a bit, but I can probably add in a more complete routine. As you can see I?m almost becoming a hypochondriac over this. I?d appreciate any help and feedback.
I?m in my early 30s , very inexperienced, and began using porn probably around 13, maybe even younger. I began noticing weaker erections as early as high school (maybe only 3 or 4 o clock at times and morning wood began to decline). I?ve always been a very anxious person so once I noticed and began worrying about this the problem became worse. In my early 20s I went to the doctor and had blood work done, which checked out fine. I was then sent to a urologist who only did a physical examination and said everything looked good. He gave me some off brand ED meds and since I was single at the time, he said go home and masturbate and come back if they don?t work. (Which I did, using porn since I was still clueless about PIED). They worked okay and I carried on with my bad PMO habits, despite having pretty weak erections at times and a lack of morning wood (almost never now and pretty weak). I obviously had insecurities about this which caused me to avoid relationships most of my 20s. At the same time I was almost in a state of denial and told myself things would work when they needed to.
This past summer I finally began looking for answers again and discovered the nofap and PIED communities, which gave me hope but also amped up my anxiety quite a bit with the realization I may have been doing this to myself. I made it about 40 days before relapsing due to some depressing life events. After relapsing, I did notice two days where I had weak morning wood and felt optimistic that nofap had been working, but got discouraged when it didn?t continue. I have since learned that progress isn?t always linear. I can also say that while my erection was pretty weak when I relapsed, I noticed some improvement when I relapsed a few more times in the following weeks, although this wasn?t consistent either. There were even a few select times where I felt like my erection was stronger than I had seen it in years.
I was also finally dating someone who I was VERY in to and my biggest fear was losing her due to not being able to perform. Being inexperienced obviously made this problem worse and created some bad performance anxiety. When the time finally came that we ended up in bed together, I was almost in a panic about not being able to perform, which shut everything down regardless of what my condition is. Luckily she was pretty drunk and I was able to use that as an excuse. We ended up breaking up shortly after though and I?ve really been beating myself up about that missed opportunity and how she may have felt about my putting off sex. I should add that while my dick was completely dead in this situation, I did have times where I got to about 40% when kissing or touching.
I?ve been pretty down since losing her and I?ve finally gotten myself back on track with nofap. I?m currently on 27 days and I?m being much more strict on myself this time (no peaking, looking at sexy pictures on Instagram, and avoiding any fantasizing as best I can). I have even had a few weak morning woods, which I suppose is some progress for what I?m used to. However I?m constantly second guessing and worrying that I may not have PIED and may have something else. It?s hard for me to tell if I?ve gone into the ?flatline? since my erection quality has sucked for so long. I will also find myself getting a weak erection here and there if I drift off thinking about a previous experience or something, which may suggest I?m not in the flatline since most guys in flatline seem to report to life at all.
Venous leak seems to be what a ton of guys look into when assuming the worst, and although I went to a urologist when I was younger I never received the ultrasound shot test everyone talks about. I?ve also looked into hard flaccid and feel I do have some of those symptoms at times, so I started stretching and exercising that area a bit, but I can probably add in a more complete routine. As you can see I?m almost becoming a hypochondriac over this. I?d appreciate any help and feedback.
