I'm currently 32 yrs old, and just got out of a relationship. Additionally, I had also lost my job last year, so let's just say I've had lots of time to reflect during the last few months.
I was first introduced to P in the form of images in my mid teens, and have been M ever since. It progressively became worse (unintentionally at first) due to the novelty of it, and P gradually ended up taking up more and more of my time. I started using it as a distraction whenever I felt over-whelmed/stressed/depressed/anxious etc, just to get a temporarily relief from the pain. And it helped...for that moment. But looking back on things now, I ended up spending more and more time in isolation, and somewhere I stopped growing/evolving as a person.
This is not my first attempt at stopping watching porn, however, the longest I had been able to stay consistent was about 24 days, and masturbation at about a week. I would sometimes substitute videos by reading erotica, which helped me refrain from watching porn, but I seem to eventually relapse back to watching videos at some point.
I guess I'm posting here coz I relapsed quite badly at the start of this year, due to the stessors in my life, and have decided to stop watching porn/Reading erotica completely, and I could use some help. Additionally, during my time in self-reflection, I came across YBOP, which made me realize that I might also have PIED. I have never been to a doctor to get tested, and never had any issues getting/staying hard while watching porn (but have had issues being intimate in my relationships), so I never made the correlation between porn and ED before just now.
Here's hoping to a great new year. I don't expect it to be easy, but I'm ready for a change, and could use (and appreciate) all the help I can get! Thank you for taking the time to read my story. -R101
I was first introduced to P in the form of images in my mid teens, and have been M ever since. It progressively became worse (unintentionally at first) due to the novelty of it, and P gradually ended up taking up more and more of my time. I started using it as a distraction whenever I felt over-whelmed/stressed/depressed/anxious etc, just to get a temporarily relief from the pain. And it helped...for that moment. But looking back on things now, I ended up spending more and more time in isolation, and somewhere I stopped growing/evolving as a person.
This is not my first attempt at stopping watching porn, however, the longest I had been able to stay consistent was about 24 days, and masturbation at about a week. I would sometimes substitute videos by reading erotica, which helped me refrain from watching porn, but I seem to eventually relapse back to watching videos at some point.
I guess I'm posting here coz I relapsed quite badly at the start of this year, due to the stessors in my life, and have decided to stop watching porn/Reading erotica completely, and I could use some help. Additionally, during my time in self-reflection, I came across YBOP, which made me realize that I might also have PIED. I have never been to a doctor to get tested, and never had any issues getting/staying hard while watching porn (but have had issues being intimate in my relationships), so I never made the correlation between porn and ED before just now.
Here's hoping to a great new year. I don't expect it to be easy, but I'm ready for a change, and could use (and appreciate) all the help I can get! Thank you for taking the time to read my story. -R101