Reboot 101_My Journey/Struggle with Porn


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I'm currently 32 yrs old, and just got out of a relationship. Additionally, I had also lost my job last year, so let's just say I've had lots of time to reflect during the last few months.

I was first introduced to P in the form of images in my mid teens, and have been M ever since. It progressively became worse (unintentionally at first) due to the novelty of it, and P gradually ended up taking up more and more of my time. I started using it as a distraction whenever I felt over-whelmed/stressed/depressed/anxious etc, just to get a temporarily relief from the pain. And it helped...for that moment. But looking back on things now, I ended up spending more and more time in isolation, and somewhere I stopped growing/evolving as a person.

This is not my first attempt at stopping watching porn, however, the longest I had been able to stay consistent was about 24 days, and masturbation at about a week. I would sometimes substitute videos by reading erotica, which helped me refrain from watching porn, but I seem to eventually relapse back to watching videos at some point.

I guess I'm posting here coz I relapsed quite badly at the start of this year, due to the stessors in my life, and have decided to stop watching porn/Reading erotica completely, and I could use some help. Additionally, during my time in self-reflection, I came across YBOP, which made me realize that I might also have PIED. I have never been to a doctor to get tested, and never had any issues getting/staying hard while watching porn (but have had issues being intimate in my relationships), so I never made the correlation between porn and ED before just now.

Here's hoping to a great new year. I don't expect it to be easy, but I'm ready for a change, and could use (and appreciate) all the help I can get! Thank you for taking the time to read my story. -R101


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Welcome R101. As you say, it won't be easy but you are definitely moving in the right direction. Keep posting of your progress and posting in other people's journals as well.


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Hi R101,

It isn't easy at all.  But you had a stretch of 24 days which is amazing.  I'm sure you'll be able to get back to that and even further.  I've only just started posting on here and commenting and it really does help, so please continue to do so.  You're making good choices, be proud of yourself!