Pdub
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I completely fell off the wagon some time ago. I convinced myself that PMO was alright... if it was done once in a while. I tried sticking to a once a month indulgence, which turned into twice a month, which turned into once a week, which turned into multiple times a week. Soon after all my gains of being able to stay erect and half sex with my wife were gone. I tried looking at porn before we had sex and it made it worse. I tried watching porn all day while she was at work but not letting myself orgasm. That worked once, then never again. I was in a rut and digging myself a deeper one.
I started tracking how many days in between sex it had been. It shocked me how quickly the tallies lined up... but I kept on PMO'ing. My wife and I started going to counseling. We argue less these days, but still aren't having sex as often as I'd like. Once a month, maybe? After being unable to perform for so long, she doesn't even engage me anymore. Things are not like they were when we first got married, which is normal, but it feels like we are both in our early sixties and not having sex at all.
I'm 25 days without looking at or seeking out porn.
I started tracking how many days in between sex it had been. It shocked me how quickly the tallies lined up... but I kept on PMO'ing. My wife and I started going to counseling. We argue less these days, but still aren't having sex as often as I'd like. Once a month, maybe? After being unable to perform for so long, she doesn't even engage me anymore. Things are not like they were when we first got married, which is normal, but it feels like we are both in our early sixties and not having sex at all.
I'm 25 days without looking at or seeking out porn.