SimonM. thanks for caring enough to support me as a friend. Some part in me was not listening to me and persisted to seek porn. I caved in after 75 days of steongly staying away from it. I am present to shame, i do feel upset.. i am not angry though as this is the furthest i have gotten second time and acknowledge that spirit in me to push through for so many days.Don't do it! It's never worth it once you're done. Never. Stay strong my friend!