Day 15
* Completed two weeks without PMO.
* Completed a whole month without orgasm.
I can't believe I did this. I'm proud and kinda sad at the same time. Still thinking about porn sometimes. Missing it. Thinking about some of the actors I liked. As if they were some kind of friends I used to know. Scenes and pictures come to my head. I'm glad I could withstand. Feeling like I have much more time now. But also feeling sometimes lonely and bored. Questioning my instincts, too. Like "Shouldn't I be much more horny after such a long time without masturbating? Without orgasm?" and temptations like "Wouldn't it be great to watch porn now? After two weeks of abstinence it might blow my mind!".
I know I have to be strong. I know I can do it. I know it won't be easy. I have to face the loneliness and the emptiness that periodically comes over me. Porn does not fix that. It just covers it up. It's good to write this to my journal to remind me of this.
* Completed two weeks without PMO.
* Completed a whole month without orgasm.
I can't believe I did this. I'm proud and kinda sad at the same time. Still thinking about porn sometimes. Missing it. Thinking about some of the actors I liked. As if they were some kind of friends I used to know. Scenes and pictures come to my head. I'm glad I could withstand. Feeling like I have much more time now. But also feeling sometimes lonely and bored. Questioning my instincts, too. Like "Shouldn't I be much more horny after such a long time without masturbating? Without orgasm?" and temptations like "Wouldn't it be great to watch porn now? After two weeks of abstinence it might blow my mind!".
I know I have to be strong. I know I can do it. I know it won't be easy. I have to face the loneliness and the emptiness that periodically comes over me. Porn does not fix that. It just covers it up. It's good to write this to my journal to remind me of this.