PIED after addited to porn for 30 years, is there any hope?

Jato

Member
hello everyone

I have read many successful reboot stories that gave me hope, however, after nearly 1 year without watching porn, I still suffer ED.

I am 45 years atm, and I started masturbating watching porn magazines when I was around 15 years. I never stopped masturbating except for nearly a year in my early 40s.

When I was 25, I had my first sexual experience with a woman, and she said that my erection was too soft. That opened my eyes and it was hard too digest.
I remembered years earlier, when my erections were hard as steel. But constantly I felt that masturbating was draining my strength and desensitizating my pennis, but I continue nevertheless.
I got married at 28, but somehow, my emotional problems, masturbation, depression and ED, plus a woman not interested in sex, resulted in a sexless marriage.

We only made love to try to have a baby. In order to get an erection, I had to masturbate myself before I could get it inside my wife, and still it was flaccid, I had issues to penetrate, soft, the erection did not last long etc. Somehow and after a long year of attempts my wife got pregnant (such an amazing news).

I kept masturbating watching porn, addicted to dopamine, my erections were softer and softer.

Then when I was around 42, I learnt about rebootnation.org yourbraindonporn etc and I quitted porn, fapping for nearly a year. Yet my penis was still dead. No benefits whatsoever from quitting porn and I relapsed. It was such a blow for me

4-5 years later, we went for a second baby, but I couldn't penetrate her, no erections whatsoever. Extremely sad and depressing

Now, at age 45, I quitted porn fapping around a month a go. I am not planning going back ever.

However, my penis feels completly dead. I am very discouraged that the previous time and after nearly a year without porn, I didn't see any positive progress, whereas everyone else were getting strong erections after only 90 days. It made me wonder, if I have any additional mechanical issue.

I would love to ask here about your opinion. Thank you everyone to such a lovely and supportive community

Do you think there is hope for me?  Has my brain gone through too much masturbation/porn from my teenager years that it is beyond repair?  any advice?
 

roark

Member
Hi Jato
Unfortunately I'm not in the best position to answer, as I'm a newbie.
I'd consider some professional aid, maybe from an urologist.
Anyway the time spent away from porn is not wasted.
Have you had any mood improvement since your last reboot?
 

marco_60

Active Member
i think Roark is right: check first with a specialist MD. If I compare your personal experience with mine, I also recorded very extended flatline periods, sometimes lasting almost a year. Do you experience morning woods?

Another possibility is that your brain still remembers only one way of getting excited, i.e. the particular way you use to masturbate and you are too anxious about performance Both these circumstances have conspired for me to depress my own libido. Have you tried e.g. meditation to get more relaxed? I did and it helped (something very simple, which I found on Youtube). All what helps avoiding anxiety about ED helps me a lot.
 

Jato

Member
thanks Marco60 and Roark

@Roark
I did felt better when I stopped using P and M. More whole and honest with myself. But the fact that I did not experience any improvement regarding ED after nearly a year, it felt discouraging.
Regarding professional aid, I did see an urologist but it was to test the quality of the sperm, I never mentioned ED. The urologist found that I have Varicocele veins, which caused me to live a healthier lifestyle (diet and exercise). I also meditate daily, I do not feel stress

@Marco60
I experience morning woods, but they are extremely soft.

I think that you are right, I have to rewire my brain to natural sex. I still find attractive women and I love to have sex with them. It is just my friend downstairs seems to be dead.
 

roark

Member
There could be a mix of psychological and physical issues.
Consider that having sex with a woman that's not interested adds some more difficulties.
Would you be too ashamed to ask aid to a psychologist?
Anyway i think you already placed your first step in the right direction with rebooting.
I hope this time will be better for you
 

akpal2

Well-Known Member
Jato said:
hello everyone

I have read many successful reboot stories that gave me hope, however, after nearly 1 year without watching porn, I still suffer ED.

I am 45 years atm, and I started masturbating watching porn magazines when I was around 15 years. I never stopped masturbating except for nearly a year in my early 40s.

When I was 25, I had my first sexual experience with a woman, and she said that my erection was too soft. That opened my eyes and it was hard too digest.
I remembered years earlier, when my erections were hard as steel. But constantly I felt that masturbating was draining my strength and desensitizating my pennis, but I continue nevertheless.
I got married at 28, but somehow, my emotional problems, masturbation, depression and ED, plus a woman not interested in sex, resulted in a sexless marriage.

We only made love to try to have a baby. In order to get an erection, I had to masturbate myself before I could get it inside my wife, and still it was flaccid, I had issues to penetrate, soft, the erection did not last long etc. Somehow and after a long year of attempts my wife got pregnant (such an amazing news).

I kept masturbating watching porn, addicted to dopamine, my erections were softer and softer.

Then when I was around 42, I learnt about rebootnation.org yourbraindonporn etc and I quitted porn, fapping for nearly a year. Yet my penis was still dead. No benefits whatsoever from quitting porn and I relapsed. It was such a blow for me

4-5 years later, we went for a second baby, but I couldn't penetrate her, no erections whatsoever. Extremely sad and depressing

Now, at age 45, I quitted porn fapping around a month a go. I am not planning going back ever.

However, my penis feels completly dead. I am very discouraged that the previous time and after nearly a year without porn, I didn't see any positive progress, whereas everyone else were getting strong erections after only 90 days. It made me wonder, if I have any additional mechanical issue.

I would love to ask here about your opinion. Thank you everyone to such a lovely and supportive community

Do you think there is hope for me?  Has my brain gone through too much masturbation/porn from my teenager years that it is beyond repair?  any advice?

My advice would be, stay the course. Many people don't feel better until 6-8 months into the reboot.

Also porn doesn't just mean watching porn but also playing out fantasies in your mind and jacking to them. I honestly believe that your problem is PIED because like me you have wired yourself to thoughts. The way sex is supposed to work is that penis gets hard first and then sends pleasure to the brain. Porn wires it the opposite way, it sends pleasure from the brain to the penis. How did I get this insight? I had PIED and recovered (only to relapse again, which is why I am back here  unfortunately).

So yes, ANY artificial sexual stimulation should be off limits for us porn addicts. People take many years to completely recover. 2 years is not uncommon. Gabe took about  years to fully recover and he was only early 20s. So stick with the process and give yourself time. Unfortunately it is very hard to be patient.
 

Jato

Member
thanks guys for your replays

I will stick to the process, living a healthy lifestyle, avoiding any thing that includes half naked girls, fantasies, etc

Thanks guys, all the best
 

Strecker

Member
Hi Jato.

Well, your story is almost a copy of my own life. I am 44 years old, my first experiences were at 21 years old (a complete disaster), I am married to an asexual woman, and I have a son almost by a miracle.

I think reading my post (http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=19576.0) might be of some help to you. After 60 days of rebooting, I could see the first positive results, so there is hope, even for extreme cases like mine.

Be strong and keep going, there is light at the end of the road.
 

Jato

Member
Thanks Strecker!!!! I will read your post... I am surprised that you saw positive results after just 60 days!!!!
Congratulations for your son.

 
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