Yesterday was very tough but I am not ready to give up yet. I'm stronger than this. This is the first time when I go past 10 days in a while.
I'm a big supporter of "Complete porn starvation". No porn, no porn substitutes, no masturbation to flashbacks. It's the safest, quickest, and surest way to beat this.
Quitting porn means discomfort, means getting out of your comfort zone. Porn is the ultimate comfort zone and if this is "comfort" then we want the opposite of "comfort" to stop feeling like shit. We need "discomfort".
Phineas 808 said:This is awesome stuff right here, man! Building resilience, inner strength, that's good. Learning how to dismiss urges, no matter how strong, is the key to overcoming this thing.
And, of course, the zero-tolerance attitude is so important. This is why in my journal I always include an assessment on where I'm at with p-subs as well as edging, when I've hit my goals on P/MO, because for me (and sounds like for you), it's all related.
Like yourself, I'm kind of a perfectionist. So, if I slip in these other areas, my reboot or recovery effort feels less genuine or whole. But again, these 'middle-circle' behaviors some call them, act as a kind of buffer zone, to let me know I'm circling the porn-pit.
You're doing great!
TheHeartacheKid said:You've got this man. And thank you for posting the way you do, I resonate so much with what you say, gives me hope that I can put together several days and get some GD confidence in myself. Keep it up!
Orbiter said:As someone who just gave in to PMO earlier today, I can assure you it is of course not a great idea though i'm sure I don't need to tell anyone that.
Congratulations on half a month. I think most of the first month is varying stages of difficult but things will get easier and from the tone of your entries, you seem to already be feeling some of the benefits of being half a month free of this addiction.
Keep up the great work Escape, we're all rooting for you!