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escapeandnevercomeback
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I have to work 3 days by myself, including 2 night shifts and I'm not excited about it because I'm new without experience. Hopefully nothing hard happens.
Today the boss sent a message about a meeting at some restaurant where they want to party or something and I'm not excited about this either because I'm recovering from my drinking problem (that they don't know about). I feel like, if I don't go, I will create this image about myself not caring about the group or whatever, but if I go, I'm afraid I won't be able to refrain myself from drinking. I really don't want to go back to my drinking habit. I sleep better and I don't have palpitations anymore. I don't know what to do.
Plus, there's been all this anxiety those couple of days.
(Lord, give me strength to overcome everything. I don't need things handed on a platter, just strength).
Today the boss sent a message about a meeting at some restaurant where they want to party or something and I'm not excited about this either because I'm recovering from my drinking problem (that they don't know about). I feel like, if I don't go, I will create this image about myself not caring about the group or whatever, but if I go, I'm afraid I won't be able to refrain myself from drinking. I really don't want to go back to my drinking habit. I sleep better and I don't have palpitations anymore. I don't know what to do.
Plus, there's been all this anxiety those couple of days.
(Lord, give me strength to overcome everything. I don't need things handed on a platter, just strength).