When you believe in magic

[Nick Simons]

Hey Hugo congrats and what a terrific summary of your perspective on your last 5 months! Its so amazing to hear how you progressed and how you now see the world (and women) and, on a personal note, paints a very clear picture for what I still have to conquer on my own journey. Really inspiring and I feel tremendously happy for you. Thanks for all that you are contributing in this journal - it is so helpful.

 

[guitar1968]

Fantastic post and really inspiring! It gives me hope as I come upon 100 days. I'm still struggling. But you give me hope and I love the idea of not rushing it. Let it take its course.

Thanks!

 

[casanova]

Congrats Hugo! Your progress makes me very glad! Seems like that soon we both will finally move our threads to the 'success stories', feels so good to think this curse is slowly behind us! Cheers!

 

[Phineas 808]

Congrats, Hugo on 150+ days! So grateful for all your progress, first in overcoming this habit, and second in the real-world sex that is now open to you!

One thing is true, I am never going back to porn. I don't even toy with the idea. Just knowing, not that it can, but that it WILL give you PIED is reason enough to never even crave it. I have not struggled a single day with that, and for that eye opener I am truly grateful.

This right here is key, one can't even toy with the idea of going back. This was a fault for me, even toward the end of my goal with its lengthy streak, that I had an ambivalence toward the idea of porn, had p-memories of a certain video and ended up revisiting it. We may get urges, especially in the beginning, but we have to be ruthless toward ourselves to not even entertain going back!

Well done.

Today I went to my yoga class and I appreciated the fact that I was surrounded by beautiful women in tights in real life and that I was able to enjoy their presence and truly appreciate not only their bodies, but their personalities as well, being able to laugh and talk to them after the class. I can feel how something inside of me has switched on. It's liberating.

This right here is awesome. And itsn't it true that women literally change in their approach toward us when we abstain from P/MO? I think they instinctively sense when a man is in control of himself, or not. They produce pheromones, but we produce...what? Some kind of masculine signal that we're in control of ourselves, that we're 'real men', and they like that...!

Just yesterday on my walk, a beautiful young woman jogged by me. And yes, she wore the modern 'jogging clothes' women do... And I looked toward her, so I can say, 'Hello', and she saw that I was looking toward her, and paying attention to her, and she gave me a smile that was like heaven smiling on me! But I thought later, had I been actively performing P/MO in the last 50 days, instead of abstaining, instead of a smile, I can almost bet that she would've given me a look of disdain, I would've caused her to cringe..., I've seen 'that' look before too.

Excited for you, and for your life with your significant other!

 

[otanerferguson]

Days 151 through 160


More and more I feel the reboot is coming to an end. I have had successful sex with my girlfriend many times over the past ten days and everything is working fine now. PIED has not shown its ugly face. I can't believe it every time it happens. I have this fear in the back of my head that it's not going to work, and then it does. It is weird because when I'm not with her, and even with her in non sexy environments, I don't feel like a horndog all the time, which has worried me at times and, since I don't test with porn or anything, I wonder if it's operational. But once I am in the moment, it just works. It's surreal. Normal is surreal. I still have not orgasmed myself, but I will save that for my wedding night in 21 days.

@Bilbo Swaggins my friend, thank you for your support. I know great things are in store for you.

@Nick Simons my pleasure. I hope that at least some can benefit of this play-by-play and I know that you are in for a ride, from which you'll come out a winner.

@guitar1968 Yes my man, don't rush it. Patience is the name of the game. It's amazing how ten days can make such a difference. For me, at day 100 it felt like I was never going to recover and just a couple of weeks later I was ready to have sex. Fragile but it was there, and about a month later it improved so much. So give it time.

@casanova It really feels like soon it's going to be our turn at success stories. Congrats on your progress too!!!

@Phineas 808 Thank you for your kind words my friend. Indeed, women notice at an instinctive level. I am so happy for your encounter with that woman jogger. Those situations feed your manliness. Here's to many more!!!!

See you all soon!!!!

 

[Deleted member 17609]

Days 151 through 160


More and more I feel the reboot is coming to an end. I have had successful sex with my girlfriend many times over the past ten days and everything is working fine now. PIED has not shown its ugly face. I can't believe it every time it happens. I have this fear in the back of my head that it's not going to work, and then it does. It is weird because when I'm not with her, and even with her in non sexy environments, I don't feel like a horndog all the time, which has worried me at times and, since I don't test with porn or anything, I wonder if it's operational. But once I am in the moment, it just works. It's surreal. Normal is surreal. I still have not orgasmed myself, but I will save that for my wedding night in 21 days.

@Bilbo Swaggins my friend, thank you for your support. I know great things are in store for you.

@Nick Simons my pleasure. I hope that at least some can benefit of this play-by-play and I know that you are in for a ride, from which you'll come out a winner.

@guitar1968 Yes my man, don't rush it. Patience is the name of the game. It's amazing how ten days can make such a difference. For me, at day 100 it felt like I was never going to recover and just a couple of weeks later I was ready to have sex. Fragile but it was there, and about a month later it improved so much. So give it time.

@casanova It really feels like soon it's going to be our turn at success stories. Congrats on your progress too!!!

@Phineas 808 Thank you for your kind words my friend. Indeed, women notice at an instinctive level. I am so happy for your encounter with that woman jogger. Those situations feed your manliness. Here's to many more!!!!

See you all soon!!!!

Congratulations for dealing with this issue in a very good way. You’re doing good, and your journey is very inspiring. And congratulations for your wedding! That’s wonderful, and it seems to come at such a good moment in your life! I wish you all the love and success that you deserve, man.

 

[casanova]

Hi Hugo! Quick message to wish you all the very best with your wedding. Lots of health and happiness in this new chapter of your life!

 

[otanerferguson]

Days 161 through 185 - The End

Dear Reboot Warriors:

This is the final post of my reboot journal. Over the past few days I've gotten married and have been able to have sex normally with my now wife. There's always a nagging feeling in the back of my head that it's not going to work, but it just does. I experienced an isolated moment of ED, but I will attribute it to me getting thrown off my game by a gang of children playing outside our window, shouting so loud that I felt they were in the room with us. A total mood killer for me. Felt like I was performing a live sex show in the middle of a pre-school classroom.

After that, on other occasions I've had many other successful sex encounters with my wife. I'm not going to say that I'm fixed, because if there's something I learned from this reboot is that recovery is not a linear progression. Like with everything in life, it has its ups and downs. I know that I will continue to improve in the future and have to continue applying pressure to the wound from here onwards, but I will call the reboot DONE. I have been able to perform under several circumstances that would have rendered me useless, like after eating too much, drinking too much, or being tired.

I am lucky to have found this community, which holds the key to the solution. I encourage everyone to continue with this process and never, ever, look at porn again. As amazing as journaling is, I need to close this circle and move on. I will write a success story and continue contributing my opinions in others' journals.

Love you all and wish you the best!

Thank you my dear @Bilbo Swaggins and @casanova for these words. I appreciate you good vibes and wish you the same. I will write in your journals some things that I need to tell you. Power to you!