Dear Redalc,
I'm very sorry to hear that you've MO-ed again, and I do agree with your belief that "dopamine releases" should only be associated with a true, real person. Here's some advice: whenever you get that temptation to relapse, to MO again, or even to watch p***, one way to stifle that urge is to quickly open up this site (Reboot Nation) and start reading about Success Stories. After reading for a while, the urges will die off and you can go back to being pure again
(give it a try, see how it goes)