TrueBlue
Member
Hey reboot community,
I am 31 and have been hooked with porn since I was 14. I started as many of you, just being curious and getting excited with underwear magazines though I started masturbating form a early age. Things got worse whit internet porn, I did not have internet at home but would go to a cafe near by and spend my weekly savings just to watch a porn.
That went for a while but when I started college things escalated tremendously. I was not the most smart kind in my engineering class and felt that was always behind, but instead of trying to cope with reality and study harder I always ended up escaping to my little fantasy world and then... no pain. That is what I thought. I became extremely dependent on porn, it was my everyday cup of coffee. I could not even study without watching porn first.
Today, I relapsed after my 29 day streak but starting over again. Feel that is still kind of hard to cope with anxiety sometimes. I have been on a meditation program for about three moths and it has helped a lot but there is still a lot to fix in my brain.
For whoever read is there is hope and I will see you in the other side.
Stay sharp and clean.
Day 1
I am 31 and have been hooked with porn since I was 14. I started as many of you, just being curious and getting excited with underwear magazines though I started masturbating form a early age. Things got worse whit internet porn, I did not have internet at home but would go to a cafe near by and spend my weekly savings just to watch a porn.
That went for a while but when I started college things escalated tremendously. I was not the most smart kind in my engineering class and felt that was always behind, but instead of trying to cope with reality and study harder I always ended up escaping to my little fantasy world and then... no pain. That is what I thought. I became extremely dependent on porn, it was my everyday cup of coffee. I could not even study without watching porn first.
Today, I relapsed after my 29 day streak but starting over again. Feel that is still kind of hard to cope with anxiety sometimes. I have been on a meditation program for about three moths and it has helped a lot but there is still a lot to fix in my brain.
For whoever read is there is hope and I will see you in the other side.
Stay sharp and clean.
Day 1