I'll admit that I'm thinking of watching porn on the weekend. I'm not gonna do it today. I'll sleep on it at the very least. I'll stay open to the idea that I feel different tomorrow. I have other things to do as well. But the thing is, I'm not sure what I want. The case may be that I genuinely do want to keep using. If that is the case, I don't think it makes much sense to hang in here. I don't know. What I do know is that I don't like having to spend so much time thinking about it. There is something about that whole recovering addict mindset that makes my life revolve too much around porn whether I'm using or not. Definitely I don't want to be in that pit either, where I'm watching it constantly. Maybe some kind of harm reduction approach would be the only way: accepting that I'm not gonna quit completely, but also acknowledging that having my binges less frequently is a huge change for the better. As I said, I'm not gonna do anything today. I'll sleep on it at least.