This time I have to quit it for good!

zackergeet

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Day 98! The other day I was reading some successful stories in yourbrainrebalance web page and some of them had to be a long time without PMO to overcome PIED completely and the time varies from 10 months to 2 years and in my mind I was holy damn. Some people get cured in 90 days and start rewiring, others take 200 days approx. in that moment, I was a little scared since I don’t know how long it will take me to fully recover but then I pull myself together and realized it does not matter how long it takes since eventually I will get there. My goal is to eliminate P permanently since not only give me PIED but it also messes with your head and you can have brain fog, depression, misogynist thoughts, less excitement, less motivation, waste time. Man, disadvantages that P give you are a lot but a lot, P is super dangerous and not many people know that. For everybody who is trying to quit P, I wish you the best and it does nor matter if you relapse, continue fighting until you do it. There is nothing better than being porn free.
 
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Phineas 808

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Some people get cured in 90 days and start rewiring, others take 200 days approx. in that moment, I was a little scared since I don’t know how long it will take me to fully recover but then I pull myself together and realized it does not matter how long it takes since eventually I will get there.

It seems to me, reading other people's stories and posts for a while now, and my own experiences that the younger the person is, who grew up on the highspeed internet porn, PMO'ing to that, take a longer time to reboot/rewire than someone (like myself), who grew up with print (mags), VCR, dvd's, and then progressed (if you will) to the computer, and then highspeed, seem to reboot/rewire faster...?

For myself, I've not suffered PIED (I believe), maybe the occassional performance anxiety driven by shame or guilt surrounding secret porn use... I think for me, too, there's been the disrupting of the behaviors throughout the decades long fight, where I'd go a week or more without using. Also, the escalation as far as content has been more gradual for me...

Having libido and functionality (down there) makes it more tempting to use at times, but I also warn myself that escalation in terms of frequency and content can and has happened, and that PIED is still a possibility. Frying the brain is still frying the brain.

You're doing great!
 

zackergeet

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Day 100! In general I feel much better I feel alive down there although I have noticed that i still cannot get it up by my own hand. But I get morning woods and random elections, since recovery is going well but I am getting complacent since sometime I see some cute pics of girls, and sometimes I found myself looking at them for several minutes but I don’t do anything besides looking but still I should try not to look. 100 days is a great start and I will continue until I recover and delete P from my life for ever.
 
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Freddy

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Day 100! In general I feel much better I feel alive down there although I have noticed that i still cannot get it up by my own hand. But I get morning woods and random elections, since recovery is going well but I am getting complacent since sometime I see some cute pics of girls, and sometimes I found myself looking at them for several minutes but I don’t do anything besides looking but still I should try not to look. 100 days is a great start and I will continue until I recover and delete P from my life for ever.
Great streak and continue on it as well!
 

zackergeet

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Today I was super busy but I read some comments or posts that I can relate to. I read about how negative feelings as a positive impulse to get rid negative outcomes always bring negative results. And I believe it, my first attempt reboot I use my anger towards porn actresses and actors (but more to women) because I was not getting the sex I wanted (distorsión reality created by porn) and me watching how beautiful and “innocent-face” women get a lot of sex even between them and I was so angry so sad so envious, furious that I cannot get sex (I know that is a false reality) but they look happy or satisfied doing it (also perhaps fake reality) but I became a misogynist against these kind of women. And I used this as a reinforcement to no look at Porn but i ended up relapsing. Now I don’t think about it (Porn) or about them (actresses : funny word to call prostitutes who video stream themselves), I don’t feel anger or any negative feeling, i know that in the world it occurred pretty mesed up things but if you are not aware of them you don’t feel anything, this is how I feel now I don’t watch I don’t feel anything and they are not in my mind anymore, and I hope I can keep it like that permanently. Porn messes up your perception towards women and how sex should be (fuck P)
 

Phineas 808

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...but I read some comments or posts that I can relate to. I read about how negative feelings as a positive impulse to get rid negative outcomes always bring negative results.

Hi, Zackergeet! Congrats on triple-digit territory! I understand and agree with what you say above about taking a negative approach during your recovery, as being negative.

But I think my comment was misunderstood by the person who replied to it. I meant a redirection of [negative] energy that was already present, toward a positive end- which sounds like what [X-person's name] said, but rather than expecting negativity to have a positive result, it was more like transmuting lead into gold, or better, as in Judo/Juijitsu, using your opponents energy to your advantage.

Example: in the event of a lapse, anger may be a natural response. I can take that negative energy and (especially if fueled by shame) aim it at my self... Or, I can take that same anger (which is naturally there in lieu of a lapse anyway) and refocus that energy toward a stronger resolve.

That negativity may be there regardless, and will eventually dissipate. But why waste it? By no means- never direct it at yourself, but rather use its force to 'push' you in the right direction...?

Be well.
 

zackergeet

Active Member
Hi, Zackergeet! Congrats on triple-digit territory! I understand and agree with what you say above about taking a negative approach during your recovery, as being negative.

But I think my comment was misunderstood by the person who replied to it. I meant a redirection of [negative] energy that was already present, toward a positive end- which sounds like what [X-person's name] said, but rather than expecting negativity to have a positive result, it was more like transmuting lead into gold, or better, as in Judo/Juijitsu, using your opponents energy to your advantage.

Example: in the event of a lapse, anger may be a natural response. I can take that negative energy and (especially if fueled by shame) aim it at my self... Or, I can take that same anger (which is naturally there in lieu of a lapse anyway) and refocus that energy toward a stronger resolve.

That negativity may be there regardless, and will eventually dissipate. But why waste it? By no means- never direct it at yourself, but rather use its force to 'push' you in the right direction...?

Be well.
Thank you so much @Phineas 808 for commenting, yeah i totally understand what you mean. Perhaps I just looked at it from one perspective but I agree with you totally. Let’s keep working to get rid of this habit, hope you are doing well as well.
 

zackergeet

Active Member
Day 104! Great improvements I could get hard just with imagination, I feel like I am in the right track. I am starting my rewiring period but being careful about OIng!
 
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