This time I have to quit it for good!

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zackergeet

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Thank you so much @yogi. This is day 3 without PMO for me, urges has not been very big. But in my mind any time I was not doing anything I was replaying the memories of being with this girl some days ago and I know I should not fantasize and I should try to give a rest to my head but the images would just pop up, and i have these mixed feeling about being able to get a girl but not performing appropriately. I have to embrace these feeling as motivation to stop PMO. Thank you for reading and wish the best to all of you guys!
 
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The 4 without PMO morning wood at 60%. Doing exercises and trying to sleep as best as possible and early. Images about my previous encounter with a girl pops up in my head and also some imagines about porn. But I try to make them go away as soon as I notice them. No libido, I only have a true desire to eliminate PIED.
 
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zackergeet said:
The 4 without PMO morning wood at 60%. Doing exercises and trying to sleep as best as possible and early. Images about my previous encounter with a girl pops up in my head and also some imagines about porn. But I try to make them go away as soon as I notice them. No libido, I only have a true desire to eliminate PIED.
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Congrats on day 4 you are doing great. Keep it going man!
 
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Day 5 without PMO cannot sleep anymore although it is 4 am, I will get ready to hit the gym. There is no urges to watch porn or masturbate but a feeling of anxiety is bugging me.
 
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zackergeet said:
Day 5 without PMO cannot sleep anymore although it is 4 am, I will get ready to hit the gym. There is no urges to watch porn or masturbate but a feeling of anxiety is bugging me.
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Yes there are these phases of intense turmoil , i think hitting a gym is the best way to deal them.
More power to you !!!
 
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Day 6 no PMO!.Thank you so much guys for your support. Yesterday even though I was tired it took me a while to sleep. Seems I am a little anxious after no PMO. Today I woke up with a 70% of morning wood ( it is always a good feeling to have life down there) which went away as soon as I went to the bathroom. No M or P urges only anxiety when I am in bed.
 
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Day 7 without PMO. Morning wood at 70%, a random erection yesterday but 70% as well. I am having a little difficulty for sleeping but I think my mind is getting clear.
 
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Still day 7, feeling depressed cause the girl I was with she is a colleague and she is trying to avoid me somehow. I wonder if the fact that i could not perform with her is the reason why she is like that to me . Normally I would no care but I feel so frustrated that I got PIED, I cannot believe it how is that possible!?, if only I had known before I would have never gone this path. I was horny all the time when I was 13 or 14 but i did not have sex until my 20’s. Now I am capable of getting girls and my stupid thing down there does not work and I know the problem is my fucking brain! It is not fair. I am just writing to let my anger out. Wish the recovery process was faster. I do not feel like masturbating or watching porn but I really feel sad about all of this. Still day 7, this time I have to break my last streak and never relapse again until I can finally stop counting.
 
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day 8 without PMO. Good morning wood, yesterday i was upset but went for a long walk and shopping to release those feelings. I think that yesterday I also had blue balls although I did not see anything that aroused me, my balls were hurting a little bit, today they ok! This time o have to quit for good!
 
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zackergeet said:
Still day 7, feeling depressed cause the girl I was with she is a colleague and she is trying to avoid me somehow. I wonder if the fact that i could not perform with her is the reason why she is like that to me . Normally I would no care but I feel so frustrated that I got PIED, I cannot believe it how is that possible!?, if only I had known before I would have never gone this path. I was horny all the time when I was 13 or 14 but i did not have sex until my 20’s. Now I am capable of getting girls and my stupid thing down there does not work and I know the problem is my fucking brain! It is not fair. I am just writing to let my anger out. Wish the recovery process was faster. I do not feel like masturbating or watching porn but I really feel sad about all of this. Still day 7, this time I have to break my last streak and never relapse again until I can finally stop counting.
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She might think that you didn't find her attractive or that she was the fault (did something wrong, etc), and perhaps she feels shame or guilt when she sees you. It's not easy--whatever it is, doesn't seem worthwhile to speculate on it. Give it time and give it space. Work on yourself and let others work on themselves. I'm sure given time you guys will become amicable again and if there's something deeper there to explore, it'll come naturally.

Wishing you strength and power for your recovery zackergeet!
 
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She might think that you didn't find her attractive or that she was the fault (did something wrong, etc), and perhaps she feels shame or guilt when she sees you. It's not easy--whatever it is, doesn't seem worthwhile to speculate on it. Give it time and give it space. Work on yourself and let others work on themselves. I'm sure given time you guys will become amicable again and if there's something deeper there to explore, it'll come naturally.

Wishing you strength and power for your recovery zackergeet!
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Thank you Wolfman your words were precise and help me to evaluate that situation. And as you say there is no use to speculate, it seems this time my recovery has made me be a little bit more anxious and upset about things I would not care. But actually this girl was the one that made me realize that I need to quit PMO, though she is like that I would have to thank her that she was the spark of beginning my recovery. Since I don’t want this to happens with other girls.
 
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zackergeet said:
Thank you Wolfman your words were precise and help me to evaluate that situation. And as you say there is no use to speculate, it seems this time my recovery has made me be a little bit more anxious and upset about things I would not care. But actually this girl was the one that made me realize that I need to quit PMO, though she is like that I would have to thank her that she was the spark of beginning my recovery. Since I don’t want this to happens with other girls.
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But she wasn't really the spark--you were. You are the one who realized that this is a problem and decided to act upon it. This girl more happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time (from her perspective), because (from your perspective) if it was another girl, the same thing would have happened and you would have realized the problem. I don't mean for this to sound cold or harsh (I have much the same experience), but we have to see that this problem comes from us and can only be solved properly when we do it for our own sake (not for others). I want to say this is an act of self-love. (Ultimately, self-love and love for others should be mutual and overlap, but I think it takes a special kind of strength to care for others, namely, that you can care for yourself.)

My point is, don't worry about other girls. If it happens, it happens. Just be honest with them that it's not them but that your brain cells are a bit fried at the moment but are busy recovering. You're doing this for you. Maybe think of it this way: It's the greatest gift you can give yourself.

Keep counting them days, zackergeet! (Or, have an app doing it for you so you can get busy achieving new skills, adventures, talents, hobbies, enterprises, and experiences.)
 
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But she wasn't really the spark--you were. You are the one who realized that this is a problem and decided to act upon it. This girl more happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time (from her perspective), because (from your perspective) if it was another girl, the same thing would have happened and you would have realized the problem. I don't mean for this to sound cold or harsh (I have much the same experience), but we have to see that this problem comes from us and can only be solved properly when we do it for our own sake (not for others). I want to say this is an act of self-love. (Ultimately, self-love and love for others should be mutual and overlap, but I think it takes a special kind of strength to care for others, namely, that you can care for yourself.)

My point is, don't worry about other girls. If it happens, it happens. Just be honest with them that it's not them but that your brain cells are a bit fried at the moment but are busy recovering. You're doing this for you. Maybe think of it this way: It's the greatest gift you can give yourself.

Keep counting them days, zackergeet! (Or, have an app doing it for you so you can get busy achieving new skills, adventures, talents, hobbies, enterprises, and experiences.)
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Hey Wolfman, I really really appreciate you take the time to read me and write to me. Your words are si precise and illuminating, you are right I always say that change or the will you change comes from inside not from exterior motives. I have had time to embraced my feelings and I feel much better and less worried about that, the only thing I should be focusing is in my recovery. Last time I got to 60 days, and I saw really good results let’s do it again and now permanently. Thank you so much buddy for your words they have really touched me and make me reflect, and gave me peace of mind. Hope you are doing well!
 
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Day 9! No morning wood today. Yesterday I was reading a manga novel, and when I opened the webpage, it popped up a porn ad (normally it does not do that) and I was like “what the hell!” I closed right away. Felt no temptation, no urges no nothing. I am in a flatline. Just focused on my recovery, I hate porn and everything that is involved with that, and specially what I have done by watching it. Today I went to the gym and trying to eat as healthy as I can. And also it seems I still have blue balls(not quite sure if that is the term correct) but i feel my balls like full and a little discomfort on the base. My first reboot I also felt but only for one day, this time I have felt for 3, I hope it goes away. Wish me luck in my path guys! My next goal is to hit the 20 days!
 
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Day 10! I hit finally that 2 digits. Morning wood in the morning 80% it is always nice to feel it alive in the morning but during the day it is pretty much sleeping. No urges to watch P or M. My mind is calmed and clear about what i want. I went to the gym today hit it hard there and still feeling blue balls. The discomfort goes away when working out but it comes back once I am static. No libido yet. Next goal get to 20 days!
 
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