Day 12.Friday. Woke up early + ate oatmeal + did morning gym workout + cold shower + postworkout meal. After that studied a bit then was extremely tired .Then slept (power nap) for 20 minutes. then ate lunch. Tried to study for tomorrow's exam but I am not able to. Seems fear has taken over me which is preventing me from proceeding forward. Social confidence has increased a lot as compared to earlier . I hate to say but I don't want to be a coward hiding from exams. But I know one thing for sure that quitting this addiction is quite taxing for the body even though externally I look good. Let the body take its time. Sometimes rationalizations erupt inside my head and in split second I kick them off and flashbacks I imagine puking at the previous memory to distort them.