Hey man, I haven't read your entire journal, but I've read some of it, great job! You have a noble thing going on with regards to your motivation to quit. One thing I did see a couple times in your journal is related to what you term "leakage". I just wanted to chime in and let you know this is most likely due to a weakened pelvic floor muscles, which is a common thing after years spent in addiction like us. You can actually alleviate this symptom and get rid of it by doing kegel exercises to strengthen these muscles. This will prevent any leakage of any kind, you will have completely control over these muscles. As an added benefit it can also increase how long you last in bed when you finally do have a wife, and makes sure you don't have premature ejaculation which is another common problem among people with our addiction for exactly the same reason: weak pelvic floor muscles and lack of control. These exercises are super easy to do and can do them at anytime in the day no matter where you are, no one can notice it. Just google kegel exercises for men or something there's lots of guides out there. Takes about 10 minutes a day and you can see if that helps! Good luck man and keep going!