Hi all. Joel here, known to some of you 8) I'm letting go of my old thread and all its baggage and starting this new journal. I'm still struggling with P addiction, but I'm also still learning and progressing on this journey.
So, to reintroduce myself - 40s, married, PA for years and I've been in this 'to and fro' of trying to give up for years. I'm exchanging emails with a coach for this issue at the moment.
Today started with something of a fail. Very cold in our apartment; when I had a moment alone, I MO'd with P-fantasy in my head - to get my adrenaline/ excitement up, and to rid myself of that 'rough-morning' feeling/ feeling of discomfort from the cold. In hindsight, I'm working on being zen and sitting with reality/ any discomfort. Sit with it, don't run from it, and certainly don't escape to bad habits. This addictive drug of a habit is never the answer. Anyway, I'll start afresh from here on in. A clean day and good mood by living my best day. My practice is to not sexualize inappropriate things or use artificial sexual stimulation; and it is to keep up good habits and a positive lifestyle to ensure recovery. Cheers!
So, to reintroduce myself - 40s, married, PA for years and I've been in this 'to and fro' of trying to give up for years. I'm exchanging emails with a coach for this issue at the moment.
Today started with something of a fail. Very cold in our apartment; when I had a moment alone, I MO'd with P-fantasy in my head - to get my adrenaline/ excitement up, and to rid myself of that 'rough-morning' feeling/ feeling of discomfort from the cold. In hindsight, I'm working on being zen and sitting with reality/ any discomfort. Sit with it, don't run from it, and certainly don't escape to bad habits. This addictive drug of a habit is never the answer. Anyway, I'll start afresh from here on in. A clean day and good mood by living my best day. My practice is to not sexualize inappropriate things or use artificial sexual stimulation; and it is to keep up good habits and a positive lifestyle to ensure recovery. Cheers!