guitar1968
Well-Known Member
Hi everyone.
I have been addicted to porn for as long as I can remember. It started with my father's Playboy's back when I was very young and it has only gotten worse. I'm not 53. I have had trouble getting and maintaining erections with my wife for many years and I know it all goes back to porn. I've tried quitting many times and I always go back. It's always the same thing. Why not, just once a week maybe.. then it becomes every day again. All of the classic problems I read about are what I'm experiencing. It's even harder and harder to maintain an erection just when masturbating now. I need weirder and more graphic porn than ever before to get me to off. I'm constantly clicking on porn sites throughout my work day. And, it's very easy to do because I've worked from home for 20 years. Without the threat of being caught by an employer it has been that much easier to spin out of control.
So, here I am. Hoping to find a way out of this constant draw to pull up a porn site. I need to stop. I don't even enjoy it anymore but it keeps pulling me in.
I long for the days of actually having sex with my partner, enjoying it, feeling it, not worrying about getting an erection, not fantasizing about some porn scene I just saw the other day to try to finish.
I'm sure this is something you all hear every day. I need to really focus on recovery and clicking on this site instead of a porn site when I feel the urge.
Thanks for listening. Any tips and suggestions are very welcome.
I have been addicted to porn for as long as I can remember. It started with my father's Playboy's back when I was very young and it has only gotten worse. I'm not 53. I have had trouble getting and maintaining erections with my wife for many years and I know it all goes back to porn. I've tried quitting many times and I always go back. It's always the same thing. Why not, just once a week maybe.. then it becomes every day again. All of the classic problems I read about are what I'm experiencing. It's even harder and harder to maintain an erection just when masturbating now. I need weirder and more graphic porn than ever before to get me to off. I'm constantly clicking on porn sites throughout my work day. And, it's very easy to do because I've worked from home for 20 years. Without the threat of being caught by an employer it has been that much easier to spin out of control.
So, here I am. Hoping to find a way out of this constant draw to pull up a porn site. I need to stop. I don't even enjoy it anymore but it keeps pulling me in.
I long for the days of actually having sex with my partner, enjoying it, feeling it, not worrying about getting an erection, not fantasizing about some porn scene I just saw the other day to try to finish.
I'm sure this is something you all hear every day. I need to really focus on recovery and clicking on this site instead of a porn site when I feel the urge.
Thanks for listening. Any tips and suggestions are very welcome.