guitar1968
Well-Known Member
120 days. Not perfect days. Not days without serious cravings. A few days of MO. But absolutely no PMO. No porn masturbation in 120 days. I think the thing that I'm most surprised by is that I truly feel like I don't need to do this everyday any longer. None of it. I used to think that even if I could get away from porn I would still have to masturbate every day. I just don't. The cravings and feelings that I need it everyday have gone away. I know that I'm not out of the woods yet. It's so easy to get pulled back in. But to have made it this far is still blowing my mind.
I guess there is not much else to say. I'm going to keep at it. Keep checking in here for now especially if I feel the demons trying to sneak back in. But I'm on my way and I feel great about it. It's been several weeks since my last MO and I think I'm going to try to go for a much longer streak now. I just think the best way for me to continue to heal is to really stay away from all of it for a while. I wanted to go hard mode when I first started but I didn't succeed. This time I'd really like to make it 90 days with no PMO, no MO and no stumbling on some porn on Twitter and hesitating just those few extra seconds. Click out and move on. I'm going to go back through my thread to see when I reported my last MO. Then I'm going to count the days to see how far along I am on the path to a full 90 day hard mode.
Thanks to everyone who has helped me get to this point. Reading others journals on here I realize that we are coming from all different places in the world, in our attitudes towards politics, towards religion and so much more, but we all support each other in trying to beat this addiction. My journal here has been so helpful to me. I have kept a journal off and on for years, but that is truly just me. Here I get feedback, support and even friendship and most of all the knowledge that I am not alone. We are in this together. Stay strong and know that you all can beat this and we are all here to support you.
I guess there is not much else to say. I'm going to keep at it. Keep checking in here for now especially if I feel the demons trying to sneak back in. But I'm on my way and I feel great about it. It's been several weeks since my last MO and I think I'm going to try to go for a much longer streak now. I just think the best way for me to continue to heal is to really stay away from all of it for a while. I wanted to go hard mode when I first started but I didn't succeed. This time I'd really like to make it 90 days with no PMO, no MO and no stumbling on some porn on Twitter and hesitating just those few extra seconds. Click out and move on. I'm going to go back through my thread to see when I reported my last MO. Then I'm going to count the days to see how far along I am on the path to a full 90 day hard mode.
Thanks to everyone who has helped me get to this point. Reading others journals on here I realize that we are coming from all different places in the world, in our attitudes towards politics, towards religion and so much more, but we all support each other in trying to beat this addiction. My journal here has been so helpful to me. I have kept a journal off and on for years, but that is truly just me. Here I get feedback, support and even friendship and most of all the knowledge that I am not alone. We are in this together. Stay strong and know that you all can beat this and we are all here to support you.