I've been porn free for over 4 weeks now. Feels good. It has been oddly easy this time. I'm just not feeling "porny" right now. I hope it sticks. I know I need to be away. I just feel better in general. I'm not going to be overly concerned about failing at some point. I would rather not, but if I do, I just hope that I can start the journey again right away before I go down the rabbit hole. But for now, I feel good, I feel clear and I'm enjoying the freedom.
@GBS Thanks for the comments. Good tips, but unfortunately most of them won't help my wife and I at this point. First, she doesn't believe in therapy and has no interest. I've brought it up numerous times. We do try to communicate, it rarely goes well any longer. Total honesty? Well, she has always known I use porn. We're not one of those couples who think it's cheating or trying to hide it from her. Does she think I'm an addict, well probably, I haven't exactly told her, but she once showed me an article about porn causing erectile dysfunction when I was having trouble and suggested it could be the problem. I didn't want to hear it or believe it at the time, but I sure do now. And, I'm just not sure either of us loves one another any longer. It's been a long marriage and we seam to be out of steam. I guess anything is possible, but I just don't see this getting fixed. I'm a lot to blame, but so is she. She's very stubborn, always right, gets massively offended if I try to talk to her about how she's treating me and so many other things. We both got us here. I just don't see a way out now. It's either live together miserably for the rest of lives or find the courage to go our separate ways. I kind of feel like when my daughter heads off to college in little over a year we may finally just be done. Nothing much for us to share here any longer.
Sorry, don't mean to be a downer especially after four very solid weeks away from porn. Not even porn subs during this time. Nothing. And, it has been so easy. I do think of sex often. But I don't think of porn often. I truly hope it stays this way.
Have a great day one and all.