Still no libido (100+ days)

casanova

Member
Day 152 without P, day 51 without O - Again I woke up without MW but within a few seconds fantasizing I've got a 90% erection. I kept fantasizing and softly touching myself and kept the erection for 30 mins. When I stopped, the erection slowly fade away. After it was gone, I started fantasizing and touching myself again and within a minute I had another 80% erection. I consider it as progress, it feels good that my body is prompt reacting at least in the early morning.


On a daily basis I keep running/sprinting, meditating, exercising creative visualization, lifting weigths, eating well and including lots of celery on my diet. I am suplementing with B12, zinc, vitamin D and am reducing significantly my online time. During my entire journey I havent had alcohol, any drug and not even coffee.

The plan is to continue healthy "recharging" till I start feeling horny during the day, then I will focus on a successful rewire divide in two parts: rewire without O and then rewire with O. Crossed fingers that it will happen in June. Till then is about patience, keeping the discipline and the faith.

Wishing you all a greay day there!
 

ser

Member
Some people are saying that we need 8 months for a good Reboot and 8 months more to get to normal levels of dopamine when having sex.

So...good luck.
 

casanova

Member
Day 156 without P, day 55 without O - hi everyone, how have you been doing? As you can see I'm without P since Christmas, and without any O for almost two months. I keep making progress. This week I've been sick, with a cold. Haven't practiced sports for that reason. But what amazed me was the fact that still I have slept every night extremely well, had vivid dreams every night as well (I don't remember the last time I had vivid dreams for 4 nights in a row), and the best: I'm waking up with such solid morning woods! Like between 90-95% erection, and lasting long, like 20-30 minutes! It feels so good. I stay in the bed and can't avoid fantasizing a bit and definitely on that moments I feel very horny.

During the day is different, I'm not feeling horny at all yet. But still, I'm feeling 'it's coming soon'. On my first streak hard mode, I remember that on day 58 I had a dead dick still, and suddenly three days later I was already feeling horny for my wife. On this new streak I'm on day 55 hard mode, so let's see, I'm very optimistic that in June we'll have some exciting news happening, literally.

Awesome news: next week I'll be vaccinated! So I will be more often 'out there', maybe vacations even, some travels. I want to receive some massages, maybe some nuru ones following the tip of our @otanerferguson. Let's see how things will be, but it feels like June will bring this journey to another level!
 

casanova

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DAY 165 without P, day 64 without O - Hi everyone! The last ten days were pretty similar. "Still no libido" but getting consistent MW, sometimes random erections etc. The other day I got a 100% MW, it felt so good. Lately I'm getting 50-60% though. I'm getting more and more vivid dreams by the way. Looking forward to start having some hot ones, till now they've been boring haha!

Could it be that zero libido comes from your over exercising? Sound like you workout a lot.
I don't think I workout a lot. I workout often but still i don't reach overtraining. My sessions are between 20 to 40 mins only. They usually leads me to better MW, so definitely the low libido don't come there. It came from porn, 100% sure. A proof is that when quitting porn I head the dead penis symptom, after 10 days or so. It only happens to damaged brains due to porn.
 

yogi

Member
That's good progress!

The dreams you are talking about, those are a sign of recovery.

I too have experienced it. The longer you abstain, the more vivid the dreams become. I sometimes suddenly recollect songs that I had heard last over 6 months ago. I sometimes get horny dreams where it feels like I am touching or talking to a woman in real life, then I suddenly wake up.

I have observed that on the day of a relapse and for the initial few days afterwards, I don't get these kind of dreams. Only when I abstain do these dreams occur.
 

casanova

Member
Day 172 without PMO, Day 71 without O -Hello gentleman, how are you doing? Please leave the link of your journals so I can follow it as well. I have good news: as you see I keep loyal to my journey and feeling lots of progress. The main progress I noticed is that my MW is happening everyday(!) between 50% and 90% erection. The other day I had a rock hard 90% one that lasted for half an hour, it felt SO good. I'm also having vivid dreams almost every night, and they are more and more 'real' if I can say so. This is something I've missed for years and now they are back. Since years I've quit weed, alcohol, and before my reboot I quit coffee as well, in order to improve my sleep. But only now I'm dreaming as I was used to. Interesting fact: the more vivid the dream, the stronger the MW when I wake up. I can't explain the connection between both, but seems like it has indeed a connection between them. Right now I'm feeling AWESOME, like really really good. Before 07:30am I had run already, did sprints, lifted weights, took a cold shower and all of that after an amazing night of sleep with vivid dreams. Feels so good, so healthy. I'm minimizing social media (I can't quit because of work), and reducing phone usage week after week. Lately I've been turning it off all electronics latest one hour before sleep, and reading a book to wind down. I noticed it impact on my sleep, my dreams, and consequently on the quality of my MW.

Other observations I notice: the more sports I practice, the stronger are the MW on the day after. I've noticed this since I started doing jump squats, still in my early twenties, on the day before special dates when I wanted to have sex all night long. But in the two years before my reboot, I couldn't control my MW anymore no matter what I did. I did many changes like quitting alcohol, weed, coffee. Introduced meat on my diet again (I've been vegetarian for 8 years and reintroduced meat 2 months before reboot). I tried many things as you see, without success. The problem was the PMO. Thanks for Gabe, Gary Wilson and this community, now I can dream and have MW consistently again and it feels awesome. If I do sprints, lift heavy, do squats and sleep well (before 23:00 and no phone after 22:00) my MW is guaranteed! Amazing progress!

At some days I still felt kind of a dead penis later in the day though. But 'my guy' is fighting hard, and hours later is already looking better, sometimes much better. And on the day after, rock hard at least when I wake up. By the way in the last two weeks I had M sometimes without O, thanks to kegels exercises. It's like a dry orgasm - M only with imagination, and right before reaching the point of no return, I close the pubococcygeus muscle for half a minute and just enjoy the feeling. I would be curious to your thoughts about this practice, it can be dangerous and ruin a hardmode streak if one is not experienced. But as a casanova I am, I always have been good with this technique, and interesting: when I do it now, I feel my penis fuller the whole day and I wake up with stronger MW the day after as well. My intention says it's helping me to put my balls to work, even if they are still a bit lazy... ;)

Changes for the upcoming weeks: as you know my goal is to recover my libido, and I'll not cease before I feel horny again. Since today I'm adding the following to my daily routine:
-Cold showers again (at least 20 seconds everyday)
-Catuaba/Muirapuama Tee 2x per day (no natural product makes me hornier than these!)
-I'll have nuru massage and/or sex (without O) at least once each two weeks from now on.
-Lift as hard as possible every single day (including 3 x 5 bicep preacher curls with 40kg plus the EZ-bar)
-At least 20 mins running with some sprints in between
And ofc I will keep my hardmode streak (without O no matter what!), meditation, healthy sleep, kegels, one hour with the wife on the sofa every night cuddling and enjoying tv shows, zinc + vitamin D & B12 suplementation, etc.

It's been 71 days hardmode and I'm still not feeling 'charged', not feeling that my sack is 'full'. I've been working super hard, but feels like my balls aren't doing their job yet. So from now on I'm stepping up the game, please wish me strength, lucky and horniness. Possibly my next post will be about a nuru massage with some super beautiful woman already. Maybe even about sex, let's see. REWIRE MODE ON!


That's good progress!

The dreams you are talking about, those are a sign of recovery.

I too have experienced it. The longer you abstain, the more vivid the dreams become. I sometimes suddenly recollect songs that I had heard last over 6 months ago. I sometimes get horny dreams where it feels like I am touching or talking to a woman in real life, then I suddenly wake up.

I have observed that on the day of a relapse and for the initial few days afterwards, I don't get these kind of dreams. Only when I abstain do these dreams occur.
@yogi: I strongly encourage you to try a longer hardmode streak. It took me months to have such dreams. If you have vivid dreams within a few days, imagine the benefits you'll feel after let's say 50 days hardmode? Wish you all the best there!
 
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casanova

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Day 174 without PMO, day 73 without O - Guys, exciting news (literally). By the way..

**BEWARE TRIGGER LANGUAGE**

I had successful sex today!

As I told you guys, after 70 days hardmode I was having consistent MW almost everyday. So now I entered the "rewire mode".

Since 3 days I've been practicing even more intensive sports (squats, sprints); am drinking Catuaba and Muirapuama (I recommend it for libido!), have sleeping better and noticing even stronger MW (80% to 90% everyday). But still no libido.

Today I had a Nuru Massage. I paid full service, in case things got hot, and it did! Very beautiful massagist; before the massage started I was rock hard. So we went straight to foreplay 20 mins with me rock hard all the time. Then sex in two positions. Around 5 mins only as I didnt wanted to risk O. I had a dry O and gave me a break. Felt SO good. Then came massage, and the massagist started foreplay again. I achieved a half erection but enough to penetrate and then another 10 minutes sex with dry O at the end!

I'm feeling awesome now! So much progress. Way more confident. First time I had sex 2 rounds in the last 2 years. I left the massage and am looking women differently. Lets hope I will not lose my MW in the next days, I keep you posted. Feeling awesome here right now!
 
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casanova

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Day 176 without PMO, day 75 without O - I continue feeling great on these two days after having sex. This dry orgasm thing is awesome, one can have sex and feel even more energized after it. I had MW yesterday, one random erection and today another MW even harder! I'm just sleeping too less probably because of excessive Catuaba/Muirapuama. I wake up after four hours of sleep feeling ready for the day - too much energy. I'm taking only Catuaba from today on, half dose than before. 7-8 hours of sleep every night is holy and key in this process. Especially when one does so many sports every day as I'm doing.

I'm not feeling horny yet though. Feels like my body is working, I gained lots of confidence already. And I'm close to reaching the best shape of my life till now as this journey is close to six months and full of sports, lift weights, etc every day. Would be awesome to finish my recovery with a six-pack as a trophy. But there is still lots of work to do, we keep going! Wishing you an awesome day there!
 
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