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guitar1968

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Well here we are at DAY 90! I am proud of this accomplishment and the fact I have gone this long without looking at P. My hope is that I have truly turned the corner and can continue this porn free life! I am more confident than I have ever been and have gotten "stronger" over this journey. I also know I have and will continue to be "tempted" but my endurance and faith will prevail!! I also am prayful for all the people on this site as they struggle through this journey. I will continue to visit and post but just maybe not as frequent. I also don't plan on being vigilant on counting days as I would prefer to have the mindset that this is over!! I am blessed beyond measure and thankful to all on this site whose posts and journals have helped me get to DAY 90! Onward and upward my brothers and I hope that some of what I have written has inspired and helped others. Again I know this will always be something that I battle but making it this far I feel prepares me to win again and again!
Congratulations Jerry. We are almost at the exact same point and I'm glad to hear your excitement about how far you have come. My struggles continue, but I am so much stronger as well. I'm hoping some of the porn memories start to fade and that I can continue to live a porn free life. I'm hoping for the exact same thing for you.

Keep up the great work. You are really doing awesome! Thanks for your comments and support on my journey as well. There are several of you on here that keep me going and I truly appreciate you all.
 

JerryTX

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Congratulations Jerry. We are almost at the exact same point and I'm glad to hear your excitement about how far you have come. My struggles continue, but I am so much stronger as well. I'm hoping some of the porn memories start to fade and that I can continue to live a porn free life. I'm hoping for the exact same thing for you.

Keep up the great work. You are really doing awesome! Thanks for your comments and support on my journey as well. There are several of you on here that keep me going and I truly appreciate you all.
Guitar while it's going good I to still have some struggles and temptations but I feel strong now to overcome them. This weekend when my wife left for a prolonged period of time I had to remove myself from my house as I could feel them coming on and I needed the flee the situation. Went for a drive, browsed Home Depot, and stayed away from home until I knew she was returning. Keep up the fight!
 

Rookie

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Congrats on your journey. I'm also a believer. Reformed Baptist (Supralapsarian if you recognize that term) and struggled for years. Last year, I had a run of 271 days without PMO...then I fell back into viewing. But not the full PMO formula. I kept telling others, it's not the amount of times you fall, but the amount of times you get back up.

So, I started posting here again.

I'm sure we can encourage each other in some ways.
 

guitar1968

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Guitar while it's going good I to still have some struggles and temptations but I feel strong now to overcome them. This weekend when my wife left for a prolonged period of time I had to remove myself from my house as I could feel them coming on and I needed the flee the situation. Went for a drive, browsed Home Depot, and stayed away from home until I knew she was returning. Keep up the fight!
Good plan Jerry. Of course at some point, we all have to spend time alone in our homes and make it through the day. I certainly hope we both get to that place sooner than later. Keep fighting.
 

Phineas 808

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...at some point, we all have to spend time alone in our homes and make it through the day. I certainly hope we both get to that place sooner than later.

This was my thinking also. Real freedom is when no one is home, and it's just you. In those times when we still don't give in to urges that we know we're fundamentally changing our habits.

Props on leaving the house to prevent a lapse, but trust that even if you stayed home, you can also dismiss the urges. And in a way, we kind of 'feed' the urges by running from them, if that makes sense.

But you have an awesome amount of days under your belt, keep going, brother!
 

JerryTX

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I agree and have overcome the urges many times when home alone over the last 97 days. However, my "fleeing" the situation it removes those thoughts or temptations to open a browser or click to much on IG etc.. Sometimes fleeing is a walk, workout, reading etc.. This weekend I thought it best to just leave and not let boredom encourage the temptations. Just as Joseph fled from Potiphar's wife sometimes removing myself from the situation is the best course of action. Plus who doesn't enjoy walking around Home Depot:D. I am traveling all week for work and know I will likely have some temptations but I also know I can overcome them now. Thanks as always @Phineas 808!

Stay strong @guitar1968 as I know you can do this and continue to win your battles!
 
I am a 49yr old Christian man that has been addicted to PMO for decades. It started back in my teens and it really progressed with the internet and availability. I am a Christian man and the guilt and shame of this longstanding addiction is come to a boiling point. It really is to much to bear by myself as I have tried to quit many, many times with no success. I am happily married and I realize this addiction has likely damaged my relationship and led to my ED. I love my wife and recently watched Life.church.tv sermon on quitting porn that led to my resolve. I would encourage you all to watch it. I am a broken man. I have been reading all the information on your brain on porn and it has helped. That is what led me to this site. This was the daily declaration I have made to myself and read it over and over especially when I am being tempted.
I am not a slave to porn and lustful thoughts. Because GOD has and will purify my heart and my mind. I will honor GOD with my eyes and thoughts. My GOD is faithful. Even when I am tempted, GOD will always give me a way out! 1 Cor 10:12-13, James 1:12, 2 Cor 10:5.

I am on day 6 of the reboot today and know my triggers. I will be traveling for work this week and I realize the temptations will become very strong the next 3 days. I will use worship, prayer, meditation, exercise to assist me from all my future temptations. It is good to see this site with others that are going through the same struggle. I have had enough!


Looking forward to posting my journey and success.
Thank you, brother in faith. Praying to God I found your posts and Pastor Craig's video. I am very happy and grateful to have discovered you in this purgatory. Let's follow each other to win this battle. Thank you, brother in faith. Praying to God I found your posts and Pastor Craig's video. I am very happy and grateful to have discovered you in this purgatory. Let's follow each other to win this battle. I am 66 days after a 90 day streak from January to Easter 2020. Together we will make it.
 

guitar1968

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I agree and have overcome the urges many times when home alone over the last 97 days. However, my "fleeing" the situation it removes those thoughts or temptations to open a browser or click to much on IG etc.. Sometimes fleeing is a walk, workout, reading etc.. This weekend I thought it best to just leave and not let boredom encourage the temptations. Just as Joseph fled from Potiphar's wife sometimes removing myself from the situation is the best course of action. Plus who doesn't enjoy walking around Home Depot:D. I am traveling all week for work and know I will likely have some temptations but I also know I can overcome them now. Thanks as always @Phineas 808!

Stay strong @guitar1968 as I know you can do this and continue to win your battles!
Yes, I love Home Depot!!!

Hope your travels go well. I have been very tempted on business trips without my wife present. Might want to find a local Home Depot, Lowes, Staples... any good store to take your mind off things! You got this! We got this!
 

guitar1968

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It's kind of funny you guys mentioning Home Depot, especially as a distraction from other venues. Because in all honesty, even when I go to Home Depot, I'm anticipating seeing lovely women- yes, even at Home Depot! :rolleyes:
Unfortunately I think that way at every store I go to. But, if you're walking around Home Depot, most of us can control ourselves enough to not fire up a browser on our phones and go to town!
 

Phineas 808

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Unfortunately I think that way at every store I go to. But, if you're walking around Home Depot, most of us can control ourselves enough to not fire up a browser on our phones and go to town!

True that, Guitar! Even at Walmart, it may be a little out of place to 'go for the gusto' in public.

It's interesting, though. I've been having to take my afternoon walks at the mall (yes, the mall), as it's been way too hot outside. I prefer my alone time in the neighborhood, but need to keep my health up.

There's a long streak of time where walking in the mall would've been unthinkable without turning it into some kind of 'lust-fest', and I would've been constantly 'triggered' toward other unwanted behaviors later on. But now it's no big deal. I go on my walk, and believe it or not, think mostly on theological topics or think on scriptures, lol...! And all the beautiful women? I view that as a bonus, lol...! It's not even a matter of trying to control myself, mostly.

I'm just not in there as a predator at a meat-market. Yes, some are 'knockout' georgeous, but I see them more as human beings than I did before.

Be well.
 

JerryTX

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Day 101 is today. I've traveled all week this week and had some strong temptations which I was able to overcome. Traveling and being "alone" in my hotel room used to mean PMO during the evening and morning. Not this time and not in the last 101 days. While I'm happy I did get the urge to MO in the AM. It started with waking up and fanaticizing about sex with the wife.. Which is good but I reached over grabbed my Iphone and opened IG. Well instead of clicking into some trouble, I gained my composure and got out of bed and opened the YOUVersion Bible app. Temptation averted but crazy how even at this point urges/temptations can be so strong. UGH!!!:confused::rolleyes: We leave on a trip next week and I know the 5 days away with my wife and son will be great. Heading into the weekend confident and thankful for this group.
1 Corinthians 10: 12-13 --I keep reading this over and over especially through my week of travel!

Praying for healing and strength for all on this site heading into the weekend!
 

guitar1968

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These dang weekends and all the triggers/temptations!! Sheesh you think this far along it would be better. Good news is I am still winning this battle. NO PMO
As you know we are right around the same number of days and the triggers I fear are always going to be there. So, we have to learn to push them down and not let them control us. I'm getting there with the porn, need more help with the MO. Always another fun day. Keep at it @JerryTX
 

JerryTX

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Day 104 and like I posted yesterday this weekend was the toughest in a long time. Yesterday I had some close battles with P Subs on IG. As usual started with some casual updates and then clicked one too many times. It was heading towards a bad place and pulling at me to follow and break this streak!!! Well I am happy to say I won but man it was difficult. My son comes home today and we leave Wednesday for vacation for 5 days so I know that will help. Crazy to think this far along and still get drawn into P. I am busy today and tomorrow with work so hoping yesterdays triggers are beyond me.
Thanks for all the encouraging words. Hang in there @guitar1968 !! We got this battle and we have come to far to let it win. I agree with you on the MO as during this streak I have MO without P 5X. I don't have an excuse but I use the one that my wife's sex drive isn't there and MO is the release. 5X isn't horrible but I am starting a No FAP streak as well.
 

Phineas 808

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Jerry, are you counting up to a certain goal? And always keep in mind that if we feed or fight urges, they only get stronger. Learn that you're in control of yourself, that 'triggers' or whatever- even urges- can't make you do anything. It's habit that you need to watch for. So, clicking onto something is one thing, but do we repeat it the next time? This may keep certain neural pathways sensitized, and make our journey more difficult.

I'm often in the same boat, and challenge myself to make my journey easier on myself, and not set myself up for failure.

Blessings.
 

guitar1968

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Day 104 and like I posted yesterday this weekend was the toughest in a long time. Yesterday I had some close battles with P Subs on IG. As usual started with some casual updates and then clicked one too many times. It was heading towards a bad place and pulling at me to follow and break this streak!!! Well I am happy to say I won but man it was difficult. My son comes home today and we leave Wednesday for vacation for 5 days so I know that will help. Crazy to think this far along and still get drawn into P. I am busy today and tomorrow with work so hoping yesterdays triggers are beyond me.
Thanks for all the encouraging words. Hang in there @guitar1968 !! We got this battle and we have come to far to let it win. I agree with you on the MO as during this streak I have MO without P 5X. I don't have an excuse but I use the one that my wife's sex drive isn't there and MO is the release. 5X isn't horrible but I am starting a No FAP streak as well.
Yeah, our paths are almost identical! I'm at 103 days no PMO, but I have MO 5 times. I've decided to stop letting it get me down. I used to masturbate every day, sometimes 2 or 3 times a day and now in 103 days I only masturbated 5 times and without porn. I didn't think it was possible 3 months ago. But I'm also with you about how I thought it would be easier once I got this far. It hasn't started dying down in me yet and in the last 2 weeks I would say it has gotten harder. I feel like I'm floating up in the air and gravity is starting to get stronger and stronger and it's harder to stay afloat. I'm hoping this will chill out soon. I'd be curious if other guys felt like this around 100 days and if so, how long did it last. I know we're all different but it certainly helps to hear other peoples experiences.

So hang in there. We're both doing great. We will slip from time to time, but we have to just keep moving forward.
 

JerryTX

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Jerry, are you counting up to a certain goal? And always keep in mind that if we feed or fight urges, they only get stronger. Learn that you're in control of yourself, that 'triggers' or whatever- even urges- can't make you do anything. It's habit that you need to watch for. So, clicking onto something is one thing, but do we repeat it the next time? This may keep certain neural pathways sensitized, and make our journey more difficult.

I'm often in the same boat, and challenge myself to make my journey easier on myself, and not set myself up for failure.

Blessings.
Phineas I am not truly counting to a certain goal because my goal is to never go back to PMO. I agree about what we feed grows. PMO has not been fed in 105 days and I'm out to starve this PMO monster! Thanks as always for your encouragement and insight!
 

Phineas 808

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I am not truly counting to a certain goal because my goal is to never go back to PMO.

I see. I'm with you... Even after my current abstinence challenge (90 days) is over, I'll just live life with the intent of never going back to these habits..., but I'll continue to check in with a report of X-amount of days free.

I mentioned feeding and fighting (as both strengthening urges) above in response to what you were saying about urges. This applies whether we're discussing PMO, MO, or pics on IG.

You're doing awesome, and you're changing your life for the better!
 
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