RN - just checking in and journaling as it helps me. Since the last post I MOd. I realize this was caused by the Psubs and edging that have been more commonplace the last 2 months of this journey. Like everyone here it seems, I have some of the same issues--- edging, Psubs, lack of sex with wife/wife libido/wife health issues, boredom, stress, alcohol, etc....
I do feel I have come along way since this journey started but being an perfectionist I let the above drive this bad behavior. With 4 days left in the year I will continue to battle. I did look back at when I started this journey with RN on 4/13/21 (263 days) and my success rate is:
- 96.96% success from PMO (8X)
- 89.73% success from MO (27X)
So over the next 4 days I want to clearly define why and how I was successful during my longest streak of 112 days and build on it. MO needs to cease, Exercise needs to increase, and I need to fully understand how boredom and alcohol contribute to this behavior. I know when I travel and drink anything (2 glasses of wine etc) then it drives me to temptations and lowers my inhibitions. So as we all begin 2022 I am a person who doesn't necessarily believe in "New Years Resolutions" but I do believe in reflection and renewed focus! I pray for everyone battling and having the courage to come to RN to better themselves. This P demon is real and the journey is tough but we all are here because we want to rid our lives of it! GOD BLESS you all! Happy New Year!