This has to stop. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength

Phineas 808

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Also, I try and include God in on all my temptations: "Well, God, I'm thinking about doing such-n-such...", thank you for making a way of escape for me.
 

Phineas 808

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Checking in on my journal this Friday. Good week as I traveled and won the battle. On to more success. Have a great weekend RN!

Good on you, brother, for facing down 'the enemy' while traveling! I know overnighters (whether I'm traveling or wife is out of town) are 'high-risk' situations that require extra-vigilance on my part. Grateful for your victory and example, Jerry!
 

JerryTX

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Just finally catching up on RN since last Friday. Things are going well. Wife is in recovery from surgery and Cancer free--Thank you GOD! Work has been extremely busy which always helps! Started a more consistent dieting and workout regime which is a bit difficult with my back herniated disc but powering through it. No urges and more importantly for me NO edging with google, IG!

I know I have mentioned due to my faith how much I love the book of Romans. Well this verse really inspired me this last weekend and wanted to share!
Romans 16:20 - The GOD of peace will soon crush satan under your feet! May the grace of our Lord Jesus be with you!

If you aren't religious take it this way - You can find peace without PMO and soon you will crush this P addiction under your feet!
 

Phineas 808

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Glad your wife is in the process of healing, Jerry! Glad you're doing well with google and IG in terms of their ability to trip us up.

Keep up the good work, brother.
 

JerryTX

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Not sure how many days it is as I haven't updated my "tracker". This weekend I had some edging on google that led to some P pics. I did not act out and moved on and away. Just like in the past of this journey, I think we all need to celebrate winning even the smallest battles! NO PMO! Yes I saw something I shouldn't have, but I didn't continue repeating down the path to PMO. Unfortunately there is a lot going on with my wife's health still and there is no intimacy found. I am being supportive of her cancer journey and I am putting my trust and faith in GOD to pull me through any temptations that may arise. In the past I used PMO as to tell myself - "I need this and it's not happening naturally with the wife, so therefore PMO is actually a good thing!!" Wow that is how I used to think!! Not anymore! Have a great week and I am thankful for All on here who have served, are still serving, and have lost loved ones serving for the US! Happy belated Memorial Day!! Freedom is not Free!
 

JerryTX

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Just checking in for accountability within my journal. Traveled last week and same as I read in my own journal I know not to what to do but I did it. Alcohol at dinner, lower expectations, lead to PMO behavior. I really was disappointed and I feel so much like Paul in Romans 7 15-25!! But I know how to respond. I have some challenging times coming up and I know how to overcome them. My journey continues.
 

Phineas 808

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Just checking in for accountability within my journal. Traveled last week and same as I read in my own journal I know not to what to do but I did it. Alcohol at dinner, lower expectations, lead to PMO behavior. I really was disappointed and I feel so much like Paul in Romans 7 15-25!! But I know how to respond. I have some challenging times coming up and I know how to overcome them. My journey continues.

Sorry for your continuing struggle, Jerry! Will support in any way I can. I came back to RN, maybe not in full capacity, but to be of help where I can.

You will overcome. Paul overcame, as I think his ch.7 experiences were more of an example under law-thinking. But we're under grace (as in Rom 8:1-4). His actual experiences are found in Acts 23:1; 24:16.

Peace.
 

JerryTX

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I obviously haven't checked in for awhile. Yes I haven't been perfect and while I have had urges, edging and a few PMO episodes. I am stronger now than a year ago, but I am not completely free from the addiction. While Reboot nation and my own journal is and will continue to be a blessing in this journey I won't be visiting as often. My own journal up to this point has been a great resource for me to revisit to make sure I am utilizing the things I have learned over the past year +. Also there are so many great things I have learned from many of you but these men have been a blessing as they have been extremely important - @Phineas 808 @Artemus @guitar1968-- Thank you for your support and guidance. I hope that my journal has assisted others. I pray for all on this site as Porn is a global problem. Thank you @Gabe Deem for all you have done and the countless people you have assisted and continue to assist. The amount of resources you provide have been extremely helpful!

My plan is to check in periodically as well as stay connected with a local group of men that are facing this addiction. I will continue my battle and plan on continuing to stay established with RN!
 

Mjori

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I obviously haven't checked in for awhile. Yes I haven't been perfect and while I have had urges, edging and a few PMO episodes. I am stronger now than a year ago, but I am not completely free from the addiction. While Reboot nation and my own journal is and will continue to be a blessing in this journey I won't be visiting as often. My own journal up to this point has been a great resource for me to revisit to make sure I am utilizing the things I have learned over the past year +. Also there are so many great things I have learned from many of you but these men have been a blessing as they have been extremely important - @Phineas 808 @Artemus @guitar1968-- Thank you for your support and guidance. I hope that my journal has assisted others. I pray for all on this site as Porn is a global problem. Thank you @Gabe Deem for all you have done and the countless people you have assisted and continue to assist. The amount of resources you provide have been extremely helpful!

My plan is to check in periodically as well as stay connected with a local group of men that are facing this addiction. I will continue my battle and plan on continuing to stay established with RN!
God bless you, remain strong all the time
 

guitar1968

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I obviously haven't checked in for awhile. Yes I haven't been perfect and while I have had urges, edging and a few PMO episodes. I am stronger now than a year ago, but I am not completely free from the addiction. While Reboot nation and my own journal is and will continue to be a blessing in this journey I won't be visiting as often. My own journal up to this point has been a great resource for me to revisit to make sure I am utilizing the things I have learned over the past year +. Also there are so many great things I have learned from many of you but these men have been a blessing as they have been extremely important - @Phineas 808 @Artemus @guitar1968-- Thank you for your support and guidance. I hope that my journal has assisted others. I pray for all on this site as Porn is a global problem. Thank you @Gabe Deem for all you have done and the countless people you have assisted and continue to assist. The amount of resources you provide have been extremely helpful!

My plan is to check in periodically as well as stay connected with a local group of men that are facing this addiction. I will continue my battle and plan on continuing to stay established with RN!
You and I started almost the same time. I'm pretty much right there with you. I'm stronger than I was a year ago for sure. I have had my ups and downs, but I haven't gone back to every single day and multiple times a day. I have had long stretches and short stretches, but far less than ever before. I still come here to get my head straight and to just not go to a porn site. It has stopped me many times. I wish I could say it's easy to quit for good, but it is not.

Wishing you continued success on your journey. We'll get there eventually.
 

Artemus

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I obviously haven't checked in for awhile. Yes I haven't been perfect and while I have had urges, edging and a few PMO episodes. I am stronger now than a year ago, but I am not completely free from the addiction. While Reboot nation and my own journal is and will continue to be a blessing in this journey I won't be visiting as often. My own journal up to this point has been a great resource for me to revisit to make sure I am utilizing the things I have learned over the past year +. Also there are so many great things I have learned from many of you but these men have been a blessing as they have been extremely important - @Phineas 808 @Artemus @guitar1968-- Thank you for your support and guidance. I hope that my journal has assisted others. I pray for all on this site as Porn is a global problem. Thank you @Gabe Deem for all you have done and the countless people you have assisted and continue to assist. The amount of resources you provide have been extremely helpful!

My plan is to check in periodically as well as stay connected with a local group of men that are facing this addiction. I will continue my battle and plan on continuing to stay established with RN!
We're here if you need us and you've blessed me as well.
 

JerryTX

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You and I started almost the same time. I'm pretty much right there with you. I'm stronger than I was a year ago for sure. I have had my ups and downs, but I haven't gone back to every single day and multiple times a day. I have had long stretches and short stretches, but far less than ever before. I still come here to get my head straight and to just not go to a porn site. It has stopped me many times. I wish I could say it's easy to quit for good, but it is not.

Wishing you continued success on your journey. We'll get there eventually.
I appreciate the comments, the dialogue we have and will continue to have, as well as supporting one another. Thank you sir!
 

Phineas 808

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I am with you, JerryTx, whatever your plan or approach is! As a fellow believer, a fellow rebooter, a fellow human being, I know your struggles.

I like how guitar said it above, "I wish I could say it's easy to quit for good, but it is not." No truer words have been said, especially when it comes to porn. While we don't want to infuse it with too much power (that it doesn't have), our addiction to it is comparable to heroin addiction.

I know what it is to have lengthy streaks, and then find yourself right back in the mix. I know discouragement, I know the frustration of trying to find that drive to go forward. But I know that this is important to you, finding freedom, lasting freedom from this and being the man of God that you know you were born to be.

You discovered a treasure in the midst of a field, keep buying that field so that nothing robs you of that treasure! I'll see you around, brother!
 

JerryTX

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Appreciate the comments. The fight continues but just evolving into more of a local group of men. I do plan on visiting here and checking in from time to time. Praying for all on RN!
 

JerryTX

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Good to check in to RN. It's been a minute and got to catch up on some of posts. Encouraging to see the battle is still being fought and people are seeking a way to kill the PMO demon. I have had a pretty solid month since last check in. Trying to stay diligent and persistent in my battle. Not sure how many days as I haven't really counted but I know it isn't perfect. P subs and edging have always been a struggle during this journey but not letting it go into a full PMO binge. Actually I don't even remember the last time I pulled up a used to be favorite web browser and just watched over and over again! Thankful for my journal and revisiting some of my posts for strength! Praying for RN and recovery!
 

JerryTX

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I needed to check in on my journal and post due to the last 2 days. I had been doing really well and working with a local group, but the stress of life (excuses) really got me in a bad place yesterday. So I wanted to reconnect here as well as provide accountability with myself, RN, and the local men that have been with me. Yesterday I found myself on a familiar website for a PMO video session. I knew it was wrong, I didn't follow any of my steps that had made me successful to this point and succumbed to the temptation. I am here today because I did it again this mid morning.

I need to really regroup and I have a long 3 months left in 2022 that I am working towards. Due to some medical issues there will be no sex with the wife for these 3 months and I know that has been on my mind. So I entitled myself to PMO and ignored everything that I have worked so hard over the last year and half!

Good news is GOD's Grace is always on me! Time to own my mistakes/lapse and start again today with what I know works. With the above 3 month abstinence from sex with the wife and will likely be returning here to provide additional strength and support as this journey continues.

GOD Bless RN
 
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